New to the forum, just read your post Letting go of logic...and it was amazing. I've struggled with the same things most of my life (now 2o y/o). I found after a psychadelic experience (something I only do once in a blue moon), that I had just been fighting many of my emotions...and it was a bit overwhelming after the drugs had worn off. I cried, I was angry, all sorts of new emotions running through me...probably similar to what you felt...but the next day I went back into my old thinking patterns and tried to fight my emotions and logicaly think through everything. So I am wondering if you could somehow help me...it's a long shot but someone to talk to would be nice.
Hope your still doing well!