Thankfully I'm doing better than I anticipated, the past day or two I decided to face my fears and attempted to converse with an admin of a relatively close-knit forum community I once was fairly active at for the sake of clarification. Needless to say it was nerve-wracking once I had to choose whether to click the send button or not, but I just said "**** it, just **** up just this one time" to myself & sent it; surprisingly the response was mainly positive. It involved a rather sensitive personal matter, so that made it all the more stressful. Wish I could've talked to a psychiatrist about some of my issues sometime sooner... Anyway, good on you for pursuing treatment by psychiatry.
I recommend making it a habit to regard your psychiatric sessions as a necessity, on the same level as food, water, oxygen, etc., that you must endure and be present at, it might encourage you to attend even when anxiety levels flare up to extremes.