I kind of skipped a lot of stories in his and mine relationship but story of the matter is. I tried, and I still will probably take him back which is bad. I still have hope we'll meet. But if we do, I know I won't be as comfortable. I just need reassurance that this guy isn't the one for me. That I can't love him. "We accept the love we think we deserve." I can't love someone who treats me like nothing.
Still I want him...but my brain says stop because he'll never fully love me. Even if he apparently never did.