Hung out last night!!!!

[Shauna]

I just started communicating with a friend of my from High School..we've been been talking for about a week now. She invited me to go out last night with her and her cousin and another one of her friends. I didn't wanna go, but i said what the hell. I need to get over this SA crap. We drove about 30 miles to another city and just hung out. I took my klonopin and had about about 2 drinks beforehand so i was cool.

I almost lost my virginity down there to some loser pothead dude. He was all high and aggressive. Ugh...i had to keep pushing him off me. I can't stand aggresive dudes like that. You need to know how to treat a lady..even if they are crazy and weird like me..lol. This other dude was like" ah,you wit the white shirt on..my dude wanna holla at cha"..I was like hell no!!! Can you at least try to be respectfull..damn. It was nothing but bums down there. We left at about 9:30pm and got my home at about 4:00 in the morning. WOW!! I cam home and went right to bed. The girls that i was hanging wit are straight up hoes man(except for me and my friend from High School)....ready to strew anything with a penis. It was like in a reality show last night. I had fun though!! We stopped at some chinese restuarant and i ordered some some crab sticks...they the bomb!!

We suppose to be going out again tonight...I don't know what the h*ll go gone on tonight..because yesterday was crazy as h*ll.

I finally have something to do on the weekend for once

[davemason2k]

Congrats. I used to have fun like this until I got off my meds and went insane again. lol

[Bad Religion]

Awesome! I'm glad you had fun.

Hopefully you won't run into any other guys like that tonight though.

[Noca]

yay! getting out of the house is nice once and a while

[Gerard]

Cool Shauna. Enjoy yourself. And hope your safe.

[FairleighCalm]

Congratulations........if you think that was fun wait until you meet an actual nice guy!!! lol. I am glad you were calm and had fun.

[Shauna]

Originally Posted by Bad Religion

Awesome! I'm glad you had fun.

Hopefully you won't run into any other guys like that tonight though.

I believe you *kinda* jinxd me with that.

I meet another guy like that against my will of course. It all boils down to peer pressure i guess. I'm to old to be doing crap like this. When we got down there this time...once again we had fun,had a couple of drinks and just hung out. They all had a guy to hook up with down there, so they didn't wanna leave me out and found me some random dude He is very cute and was a libra. I love Libra men for some reason. Me and the girl that was with us chilled at his friends house for about an hour or so, while the other 2 went off and hung out with there dudes. It was cool. The guy seemed alright at first,
but about 15 mins into our conversation..he started bringing up sex. Ugh...i swear. WHERE ARE ALL THE REAL NICE GUYS HIDING AT!!!! He just kept pressuring me to have sex with him. I didnt though...he didn't get mad at all. We just sat down, watched tv and talked. We exchanged numbers and everything. I think i like him, BUT i don't trust me. Thats the major problem. The other couple was in the backroom having sex the whole time. smh. She just met the guy and had sex with him

Anyway..with all that nonsense said...i enjoyed myself. Geting out like this is helping my SA and my confidence around guys I just hate that 99% of them are jerks and only want sex.

Also....I'm starting to get comfortable with other 2 girls. They are nasty hoes and all, but they are cool chicks to be around Never a dull moment.

[fraidycat]

Also....I'm starting to get comfortable with other 2 girls. They are nasty hoes and all, but they are cool chicks to be around Laughing Never a dull moment.

haha..that's funny. Since you enjoy their company, continue hanging out w/them. Maybe you can add more "girly" stuff...shopping...movies. Clubbing is fun as hell, but I'm not crazy with how they hook up with random guys and drag you to their house. Seriously, be careful with that. Keep mase in your bag girl..lol

If all they want to do is club, keep them as clubbing friends and build on a relationship with someone saner.

Just wondering..do you take klonopin everytime you go out w/them? Everytime I go out, i find that i need a little klonopin too..not sure if it's the best way to go about things

[mindfulgirl]

Good for you on two accounts: keeping your wits about you, and daring to go out and have fun!

[Shauna]

Yeah i had fun and all, BUT i'm starting to realize that the nightlife ain't all its cracked up to be. Its like they go out every week end and do the same crap over and over. Its like they can't have a good time without having something in their system. I hate that. All that drinking and smoking gets sloppy after a while.

I think i like my introverted life more now The fast life is just not for me. People are soo crazy these days. I've never met any chicks like this in my life. I've seen them on TV but not in real life. lol They both have boyfriends, but with cheat on them with anything walking. I mean complete strangers at that.

I don't know if this thread should be in here or in the Frustration section..lol

......life goes on

[NightinGale]

Right on girly! And mucho kudos for knowing how you're supposed to be treated.

[Shauna]

Originally Posted by fraidycat

Just wondering..do you take klonopin everytime you go out w/them? Everytime I go out, i find that i need a little klonopin too..not sure if it's the best way to go about things

YES!!!....i have to or else i would be painfully shy. The klonopin helps me relax and it puts me at ease so i can socialize a little better. Besides the Klonopin..i also downed a couple of Bacardis before they came I swear i need alot to help me be social. Thats why i hate SA soo much. Suck.

I did met a cool guy down there though. He supposed to call me in about and hour and i'm nervous as hell We talked great when i was at their house..but i had alot of things in my system. I'm sober now. I mit have to take a klonopin right quick before he calls. I don't wanna come off too stupid and boring

Lord..please give me some social skills!!!!!!!!!!

fraidycat, when you go out, do you have to take anything to put you at ease as well?

[fraidycat]

yea, i usually have to pop in a klonopin to go out if it's w/people who have no clue about sa. If it's with those that know, i try to go natural. Eating dinner, having to sit face to face aggrevates my sa.

i def know what you mean about wanting a few drinks beforehand. i'm not crazy about doing that. I rather ease into the night with drinks than to have to be loaded up before...it's not a good feeling