Too shy to go to church but not too shy to get drunk...

[McBeef]

I just woke up from a party I went to last night. I'm not super good friends with anyone from work but people here and there know me and think I'm hilarious. Comedy is kind of a coping mechanism I've developed but it puts me in weird situations. I'm not always sure I'll hit the jokes.

Anyway, I got invited to this going away party and very very nearly didn't go. I finally ended up going because I didn't want to hurt this guy's feelings and I had told him in person that I would be there. So I went. And I drank. And while drunk I sang kareoke and then took this girl into a bedroom and had a heavy make out session. I woke up at their house at 4 am and drove back to my place to sleep it off. Come to realize that she later told me that she was married... I had asked her if she had a boyfriend and she said no but I guess I didn't have the pressence of mind to specifically ask about husbands.

I feel horrible and I feel guilty and I generally don't like the way I've been living my life, albeit in isolation 99% of the time, but I'm too scared to go to church and get back on the straight and narrow. I keep saying once I'm in shape and buy new clothes I'll go but its taking forever. I'd like to date someone within my own religion but I feel like there are standards I can't live up to in order to do that. Now I'm hunger over and have the flu too. Time to down that orange juice and nyquil I guess.

[millenniumman75]

McBeef,

I have the same problem when it comes to church - I am afraid to attend because I will be late. I didn't even go this morning myself. The thing is that you should NEVER worry about other people. First, that girl should not have been at that party doing those things if she is married - she lied to you if she is married and there is something SEVERELY wrong with her relationship - ALL and I repeat ALL ties are to be cut with her! Second, go to church when you feel comfortable - in the meantime, pray for forgiveness. He knows you, so He understands the failures of humanness.

Since I read your post, that means another Christian has heard/seen you so that is enough to warrant God's attention on this.

[opinion_m]

I have the same problem... I feel bad for my drinking habit as a crutch to socialize. There is NO way I would drink to go to a church service though & therefore I am too shy/lazy to make myself get up early in the morning & sit with a huge crowd of ppl. Although service isn't quite as bad to me as sitting in sunday school classes.....bc those require more social interaction & friendly cheerful conversations..... or thats what I feel like. So that is a goal of mine.. to get myself going to church again. Hopefully I can comfortably go to a sunday school class again one day.

[bender3008]

god can work in mysterious ways: watch right through
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=De47fjH6 ... re=related

[bender3008]

IMO The "church" follows Paul and all his teachings anyway. Not Jesus.

I didn't sign up to follow Paul.

[soldierforchrist]

this sounds like a problem u should take to jesus ur loving savior and he would be glad to help u with this probelm. he can give u the courage to and the boldness to go to church and to quit drinking. god bless