Yes, because of my Social Anxiety I have missed
4 months of going to church. Eventually I go back.
I get convicted and go back. The longer I'm away
from church, the harder it is to go back.
Facing people at church after being away for so
long is what I dread.
And being away for 3 months, 4 months, even 6
months at a time is not the first time I've done
that. It's not the Pastor, or the teaching, or
the worship - it's the fellowshipping.
I'm terribly shy. I was Roman Catholic for 43
years before becoming a born again Christian.
As a Roman Catholic, because it's religion, I
didn't have to fellowship. I just went to Mass,
blessed myself with holy water, said Hi to the
Priest on my way out. And I left after that.
Yes... I feel guilty. I should want to fellowship
with other believers. Sometimes I pray for God
to take it away. Maybe this is my weakness.
And like Paul the Apostle prayed for God to
take away his thorn in his flesh, SA is my thorn.
God's power is made perfect in our weakness.