Social Anxiety Support

razvi · 06-16-2012, 04:32 PM

hi im new to this and excuse my english..not my native language..
well my story is simple..im 23 years old,autistic a bit retarded,ugly(people often say i look like that mr Bean character and sometimes i feel like i act like him lol)
all my life ive been rejected i dont have any friends at all,rarely i go out from my house never had a girlfriend or have my first kiss,not even an onest smile from a girl..
i think i am the perfect definition of failure,my father always says to me to go out and make at least some friends but im ashamed to say to my parents about this bad feelings..
i want to end my life but i cant do that because i will hurt my parents..thats the only thing that keept me alive until now..i feel like i wasnt supposed to exist..with or without me is the same thing..
i have a brother who 3 year younger than me and onest i envie him..he is total opposite of me..we didnt get along when we were kids and we dont have a goog relationship either now..he is very beautiful he has a very active social life,many friends,girls are acting crazy around him and he is that cassanova player type..i think he had at least 30 girls until now..and he is only 20 years old..and my self 0..

and sadly for me i envie him..i would like to be like him but i know i cant..im to shy..a bit retarded..im at the limit of normality and thats even worse..i know whats happening around me but i cant express my self the way i would like..i just spend all day long watching sports on tv or viewing porn on my laptop and now im so tired of everything..
it is so frustrating the way i fell and i wonder what i did wrong to deserve this? i just want want to live my life like any other human being..sorry for my spelling once again..

buutenks · 06-16-2012, 04:36 PM

Well if it makes you feel any better you r not alone.

Scotty23 · 06-16-2012, 06:15 PM

I'm the same exact way. I'm around your age. I have an autism spectrum disorder. Never had a girlfriend. And my younger brother is more successful than me in every way. What is your native language ?

razvi · 06-17-2012, 06:53 AM

i am romanian

EmotionlessThug · 06-17-2012, 07:31 AM

I never had a girlfriend and plan on dying without one because i was born curse, what's a sense having a girlfriend or a wife that stresses you out. My only friend is my misery, I could go to a club by myself and pull out a PS Vita and **** this cold ***** made world.

Bretona · 06-17-2012, 07:39 AM

I feel you. I can see myself in your description. I'm emotionally and socially retarded, very analytical and rational person but I struggle with people, to maintain a normal conversation is very challenging to me, emotionally I am on a 5 year old level. i struggle to process and sort my emotions. I know/experience just the very simplistic low emtions like envy, anger, hate and fear. Other than that I am empty.

06-16-2012, 04:32 PM	#1 (permalink)
razvi Status: SAS Member Join Date: Jun 2012 Posts: 17	why me? :( hi im new to this and excuse my english..not my native language.. well my story is simple..im 23 years old,autistic a bit retarded,ugly(people often say i look like that mr Bean character and sometimes i feel like i act like him lol) all my life ive been rejected i dont have any friends at all,rarely i go out from my house never had a girlfriend or have my first kiss,not even an onest smile from a girl.. i think i am the perfect definition of failure,my father always says to me to go out and make at least some friends but im ashamed to say to my parents about this bad feelings.. i want to end my life but i cant do that because i will hurt my parents..thats the only thing that keept me alive until now..i feel like i wasnt supposed to exist..with or without me is the same thing.. i have a brother who 3 year younger than me and onest i envie him..he is total opposite of me..we didnt get along when we were kids and we dont have a goog relationship either now..he is very beautiful he has a very active social life,many friends,girls are acting crazy around him and he is that cassanova player type..i think he had at least 30 girls until now..and he is only 20 years old..and my self 0.. and sadly for me i envie him..i would like to be like him but i know i cant..im to shy..a bit retarded..im at the limit of normality and thats even worse..i know whats happening around me but i cant express my self the way i would like..i just spend all day long watching sports on tv or viewing porn on my laptop and now im so tired of everything.. it is so frustrating the way i fell and i wonder what i did wrong to deserve this? i just want want to live my life like any other human being..sorry for my spelling once again..

06-17-2012, 07:31 AM	#5 (permalink)
EmotionlessThug Status: PS4 $429 Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Tenchi Muyo! USA Gender: Male Age: 20 Posts: 1,018	I never had a girlfriend and plan on dying without one because i was born curse, what's a sense having a girlfriend or a wife that stresses you out. My only friend is my misery, I could go to a club by myself and pull out a PS Vita and ** this cold * made world. __________________ ShyThug's << Shy?? Scared to talk to people? \| EmoThug's << Emo? Expressing no emotions? One who submits to a disorganized crime syndicate. Usually educated, poor marksmanship, slightly poor grammar, very poor social skills, sometimes friendly, and poor quality of life. People sometimes call shy thugs /emothugs, slow, nigish, lazy, but ShyThug's/ EmoThug's are very intelligent people. I don't have SA. Just extremely poor social skills. Kill Illuminati asap!!!!! F* people!!

06-16-2012, 04:36 PM	#2 (permalink)
buutenks Status: Thinking... Join Date: Mar 2012 Location: Romania Gender: Male Age: 23 Posts: 504	Well if it makes you feel any better you r not alone.

06-16-2012, 06:15 PM	#3 (permalink)
Scotty23 Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2011 Gender: Male Posts: 165	I'm the same exact way. I'm around your age. I have an autism spectrum disorder. Never had a girlfriend. And my younger brother is more successful than me in every way. What is your native language ?

06-17-2012, 06:53 AM	#4 (permalink)
razvi Status: SAS Member Join Date: Jun 2012 Posts: 17	i am romanian

06-17-2012, 07:39 AM	#6 (permalink)
Bretona Status: SAS Member Join Date: Apr 2012 Posts: 24	I feel you. I can see myself in your description. I'm emotionally and socially retarded, very analytical and rational person but I struggle with people, to maintain a normal conversation is very challenging to me, emotionally I am on a 5 year old level. i struggle to process and sort my emotions. I know/experience just the very simplistic low emtions like envy, anger, hate and fear. Other than that I am empty.