I understand you, It's frustrating. You can do what you can but you can't change your whole persona over night. And yes they don't see a mental problem they just see nerves, and you're not gonna turn around and tell them you have an axiety disorder because it's not really taken that seriously even though we know it can be serious, and you're trying to put your best foot forward and hide your nerves. So yeah it's frustrating, I'm sorry you're finding it hard. To try to give you some perspective, it's one job in the whole world and it's one guys opinion. You could go to an interview and notice nervous qualities about your interviewer, or you might talk with them more easily because you just click with them better, no two people are the same but that just means it's unlikely the next person will react in the same way to you. Don't let it make you sell yourself short and remember it's perfectly normal and acceptable to be a little nervous in that situation but those nerves are more for you but you're still trying despite that.
down these mean streets a man must go who is not himself mean