Join Date: Jan 2006
Location: specific northwest
This happens to me and I'm also puzzled as to why. Sure, a lot of it rests in my own thoughts and projections. But I also know there is something about me that makes people uneasy.
I think people just don't know what to make of me. Some possible reasons why:
I look kind of goofy, for one thing. I'm a tall, skinny guy with a beard. I move awkwardly, especially if I feel like I'm being looked at. I have issues with making eye contact. I'm somewhat effeminate, even though I'm straight. And I tend to be OVERLY polite and soft-spoken. Whereas I'm just trying to be pleasant (while NOT projecting the melancholy I feel inside), I feel like people see me as being condescending, even though I'm not trying to be.
And even if I am able to make some kind of connection with people, it usually fades shortly thereafter. I can't sustain many relationships.
I think I bum people out, which is why I just try to stay out of their way. And that's probably not a very good way to go about living.
"To live outside the law you must be honest..."