at first... they may want to get to know me
I talk to them and after that, it gets awkward. I thought we were getting closer and becoming friends but they don't even say anything and just leave the class. I feel like they are purposely avoiding me
I know that my voice quivers and I'm a coward when it comes to public speaking or speaking when called on.. but does that make me any less of a person?
I'm sorry that I can't be confident and exude a vibe that is comfortable to all.. I just can't do it.
Today in another class, my voice gets all tangled up and I have to continue to clear my throat... I know it's not just shyness, it's social anxiety, no one will understand why I feel that way.. one day I can be somewhat normal, the next day I'm crippled with social anxiety.
A girl turned around from the front of the class and gave me a disgusted look... one of those looks where she's thinking "get the hell over it"
Another person near the front was giggling to his friend
I feel like people are judging me negatively...constantly
my thoughts are screwed up
I know where it went wrong.. it was high school. I think people are able to tell that shy people don't have friends.. which is true. I certainly agree to an extent that nervous, shy people afraid of criticism and wanting the approval of others don't have many friends