My temperament seems to predispose me to avoid people. I remember as a six year old wandering off into the corner of the field to play alone. I don't remember feeling anxiety, but I don't really think I was all that aware of my feelings at such a young age, so who knows, maybe I was feeling anxious.
In middle school, after bouncing between schools, I found I was highly anxious going into a new environment, and didn't adapt (or try to adapt- I chose to avoid interacting 9 times out of 10). If I had been forced to adapt, maybe I would have, but my parents let me switch back to my first school, because I said I missed my friends. That was a mistake. Going back only made me feel more conspicuous, because I realized other kids must wonder why I came back. This was exacerbated by a boy I had had a crush on (who my friends/sister told before I left for the other school -_- against my wishes) making fun of me, mostly for being ugly. As a girl, yea, that ****ed me up. Then I watched my friends turn away from me once they realized I was a social toxin to their reputation. Some did not to their credit, but regardless, this led to trust issues realizing people will dispose of you when it suits them for superficial reasons.
Next I repeated my mistake, transferring to a new high school, and then returning to old friends. Of course this did not help, but the repercussions were less severe. I got by being my meek self. I was awkward, but I had friends.
I made an enemy out of one of my friends during a long episode of depression in my early twenties which made me a very disagreeable person at times. I took my hurt out on the one person left in my social circle, and our friendship degenerated to nonexistence.
After writing this down, I realize I really need to venture out, and let myself live in my anxiety. I did that a little in my mid-to-late twenties and I've made new friends. I even have a boyfriend now. However, I can tell I am becoming dependent on him, and I need to challenge myself. Cheers to new challenges. May god have mercy on my meek little self lol.