Unable to show emotion
I have a hard time being able to show emotion. Things that make me happy, excited, sad, angry...I almost always end up keeping a straight face. What's worse is when the feelings are positive, like happiness or giddiness, is I sub-consciously mock and belittle myself for feeling that way, as if it's wrong or scary to have positive feelings. As if it's not "okay" or "cool" to feel that way. Isn't that completely and utterly stupid?
I think this happened because I was always teased as a child from my brother for doing something he considered silly and childish for me to do (which, obviously, I was a child, so). And the same thing happened in school too, because everyone always thought I was weird for being so quiet, and any difference from the norm would intimidate them, or something.
The only time I can properly show emotion is when something very serious happens to me, like my cat that died last year. She meant a lot to me, so it hurt to see her go.
It's scary to me that I can't emote, and I wouldn't doubt others would think it's strange and scary as well.