Join Date: Nov 2004
Location: A junkyard full of false starts
The benefit of having nothing to live for
You no longer fear death. I've lost my fear of dying. Dying would be like getting your license renewed at the DMV or something. Just another one of those procedural processes that everyone goes through. No emotion in it. If you have nothing or no one left to lose, and no hope for the future, then life doesn't so much matter anymore. What does it matter if I'm dead instead of sitting here and watching TV or listening to music? Is that even really being alive? Or is it merely temporarily distracted? Can someone be un-alive but not dead? What is the difference between being dead and this pretend life, really? As it is now, I'm (we're) nothing but the living dead. The living, waking, walking dead. Personality-less and devoid of the humanness that makes one something other than 'alive by default' as someone else called it. I'm starting to learn nothing really matters anymore. Like in the Weezer song 'another loss in a losing life doesn't matter so much anymore.' I think this will be my new battle cry. It's so simple and so true: Nothing matters.
This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time.