I am an awkward kid. A lot of people tell me I am funny and i guess people like to hang out with me. I am a "weird kid" at school as I'm sure many of you are too. The one that doesn't talk to anyone, listens to the teacher, does my work, and right when the clock hits 3 I'm gone.
Hanging out with people makes me tired. I hate hanging with people. I try to do it because i feel like its right for people my age (17) to be doing such but i find that all my friends do is smoke weed (i stopped a while ago because it drives my SA through the roof) and i feel like making conversation is tedious. Being at home by myself watching tv or doing whatever is so much more fun for me... because i don't have to worry about social standards.
Just venting, my "friend" got offended when i exploded on him for asking to hang out. He asked me what i was doing and i told him nothing and i don't want to do anything. Should i keep trying or give up?
It's not like i don't like being alone, its honestly my favorite thing in the world. I see all these posts about people being lonely and i think hey... maybe the only reason i feel this way is because of the interaction i get at school and after thats gone I'll feel the same. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm not doing what teenagers are suppose to do and that I'm a loser, but i get invited to hang out on occasion, i just enjoy being alone more...
sorry for the wall of text
tl;dr: Worrying about what people think of me constantly while hanging out is annoying, and usually when i get home from a friends house, i crash because of how exhausted i am.