So sick of it

[Shadyman]

I am soooo sick of my life, everyday I just wake up and hang around the house all day and I don't even talk much to my father or anyone else in the house about my problems. I couldn't even talk to my mom about it, I told her I felt crappy all the time and she asked what was wrong, but I couldn't get anything to come out. I wanted to say that I am afraid all the time to talk to people, and I am depressed about it.

[its_a_rick]

Originally Posted by Shadyman

I am soooo sick of my life, everyday I just wake up and hang around the house all day and I don't even talk much to my father or anyone else in the house about my problems. I couldn't even talk to my mom about it, I told her I felt crappy all the time and she asked what was wrong, but I couldn't get anything to come out. I wanted to say that I am afraid all the time to talk to people, and I am depressed about it.

I'm assuming they don't know anything about (you having) SA.
Telling them is one of the hardest things to do, if you can't then consider writing a note or printing some stuff and just leave it in a place where you're sure they'll find it (make sure it doesn't sound like a suicide note though, don't want to scare them).
Or perhaps you could email it.
It'll be awkward but (hopefully) worth it in the end.

I wish you goodluck and hope you'll feel beter soon

[Prakas]

Originally Posted by Shadyman

I am soooo sick of my life, everyday I just wake up and hang around the house all day and I don't even talk much to my father or anyone else in the house about my problems. I couldn't even talk to my mom about it, I told her I felt crappy all the time and she asked what was wrong, but I couldn't get anything to come out. I wanted to say that I am afraid all the time to talk to people, and I am depressed about it.

Know how you feel. Do you have a job or go to school? Anything that gets you out of the house would be good. Go for a bike ride, a walk, anything. It will help and clear your mind some.

[shyvr6]

This is probably one of those times where having a hobby would go a long way.

[Shadyman]

Nope no school because I dropped out like a fool, and still I have not had a single job my whole life. I used to play video games WAY too much as a hobby and workout, but I just been feeling so down and haven't cared to do much anymore.

[wxolue]

I know where you're coming from. Even if you told your parents, I doubt it would help much. There are only two types of people who understand just how bad you feel. Therapists and other people with anxiety/depression. I suggest you see the former.

[xredsoxfan101]

i know. i know your pain. my friends give me **** and a lot of stress is in my way with school but he nhave each other and at least you have me support