Presentation tomorrow and being social

[Maaila]

The first blah thing is that I have to do a presentation tomorrow, about England in Dutch (I'm learning the language). I don't wannnnaaaaaa. I know I will and can do it but it seems pointless. You know, since I get so worked up about it and all for a presentation about a country that most likely the class knows as much as I do about it. The pay-off isn't worth all that anxiety. I do really enjoy speaking Dutch though because then I realise that I can. So maybe I can make it seem like it's worth my while by convincing myself that this is all for my Dutch and not just because the teacher told me to do it.

The second poo thing is that last night my boyfriend and his mum bugged me about not doing anything on my own (again). It really doesn't help me when they do that, it just reminds me that I'm so trapped in my own anxiety and it makes me feel ashamed. The things that they suggest don't resonate with me enough for me to be able to get up and do them. I'm not sure if I'm just really picky/stubborn or if I need to do things that hold more meaning for me otherwise I can't conquer my anxiety. There's a meet up group that are meeting on thursday to practice speaking Dutch whilst playing scrabble. Maybe I can get myself to go. I hope I don't flake out, I hate it when I do that.

[its_a_rick]

Originally Posted by Maaila

The first blah thing is that I have to do a presentation tomorrow, about England in Dutch (I'm learning the language). I don't wannnnaaaaaa. I know I will and can do it but it seems pointless. You know, since I get so worked up about it and all for a presentation about a country that most likely the class knows as much as I do about it. The pay-off isn't worth all that anxiety. I do really enjoy speaking Dutch though because then I realise that I can. So maybe I can make it seem like it's worth my while by convincing myself that this is all for my Dutch and not just because the teacher told me to do it.

Ah yes, meaningless presentations just for sake of presenting. I get what you mean, if you had like a cure for cancer then you'd actually have something to talk about/convince the audience.

Originally Posted by Maaila

The second poo thing is that last night my boyfriend and his mum bugged me about not doing anything on my own (again). It really doesn't help me when they do that, it just reminds me that I'm so trapped in my own anxiety and it makes me feel ashamed. The things that they suggest don't resonate with me enough for me to be able to get up and do them. I'm not sure if I'm just really picky/stubborn or if I need to do things that hold more meaning for me otherwise I can't conquer my anxiety. There's a meet up group that are meeting on thursday to practice speaking Dutch whilst playing scrabble. Maybe I can get myself to go. I hope I don't flake out, I hate it when I do that.

People pushing you can be a pain at times, especially if they're not really understanding. Luckily for me my parents leave me alone most of the time.

Anyway, goodluck with the presentation tomorrow!

[Maaila]

Originally Posted by its_a_rick

Ah yes, meaningless presentations just for sake of presenting. I get what you mean, if you had like a cure for cancer then you'd actually have something to talk about/convince the audience.

Ha, yeah I think I could get through it if it was to benefit other people.

I survived! I was visibly nervous. I thought I was going to be asked to present after another girl and so I was kinda relaxed about it but then the teacher asked me to go first and it threw me off. Then it was just a case of getting through it rather than trying to be good.

I have the option of going to a meet up tonight for people learning Dutch but I'm finding it really hard to convince myself to go. Le sigh.

[its_a_rick]

Originally Posted by Maaila

Ha, yeah I think I could get through it if it was to benefit other people.

I survived! I was visibly nervous. I thought I was going to be asked to present after another girl and so I was kinda relaxed about it but then the teacher asked me to go first and it threw me off. Then it was just a case of getting through it rather than trying to be good.

I have the option of going to a meet up tonight for people learning Dutch but I'm finding it really hard to convince myself to go. Le sigh.

Well congratz on surviving the presentation =p
I kind of like going first with a presentation, I mean, ofcourse I'd rather go last and put it off for as long as possible but it's nice to just get it over with.

As for the meet up, if it would help you and it's not impossibly hard to go then by all means, do go.