This has been happening to me a lot lately for some reason. People seem to be cruel and quick to turn on me for reasons I think they would forgive others for. I'm usually quite reserved and try not to be arrogant or rude and I think that might be my problem. If you're shy or let others know you're somewhat depressed they're more likely to turn on you (I guess you can say the same for people who are ugly, considered weird, or outcasts etc). Also that tends to create a pecking order with their friends or people who you thought were your friends. If one person turns on you they all will and they'll make it known to you how meaningless any moments of bonding between you were. I don't know what I can do to make people like me more. Feels like I just can't connect with anyone at all.
Edit: Now this didn't actually happen this way but I'll give an example
Person X says something in front of the club (I've been a member of the club over a year, thought I had friends and people who liked me since I'd contributed so much for so long)
I say something, basically comparing myself to person x, and person X feels the need to call me ugly and bully me out of nowhere and for no reason other than to make me feel bad in front of everyone.
I stand up for myself, as any person who'd be in my situation most likely would. I get person x removed from the club because he bullied me and called me then everyone turns on me and I end up being outcast and eventually removed from the club myself and person x is invited back, even though he was the one who started the trouble. No one seems to care that I was removed or bullied and picked on. I might as well have never even been there though I was just as active as anyone else and had been a part of the club over a year.
It's almost as though it's expected of me to just be picked on and bullied rather than stand up for myself. I would have lost in either situation whether or not I had accepted his bullying or whether I had done the correct thing by having him removed for the name calling. Its almost like my predetermined lot in life just to be a loser no matter what. I don't know how a person like me can accept having total apathy from everyone to the point where they think it's justified if I'm bullied or picked on and kicked around. Really makes me hate people as a whole but makes me hate myself more so because it's just natural for people to treat me this way. How else can you cope with something like this without wanting to kill yourself or go on a psychotic rampage?
I'm getting flashbacks of similar childhood experiences...