User Requested Permanent Ban
Join Date: May 2011
As a SA sufferer I can say that I feel distant from most people, including my family. My mother loves me and I understand that but she always seems to have a leash on my compared to other parents I see, and it's really been causing to withdraw from her and others.
She watches the news often and she feels the need to lecture me on every news story. Apparently to her if I post a picture of myself on FaceBook it'll result in someone identifying me and coming to my house and killing me. I have little friends, only 4 and never had a girlfriend. Whenever the phone bill comes in she interigates me and asks about every unfamiliar number she sees. I knew kids in high school who's phonebills were in the thousands and an extra 0.20 cents is enough to make her furious.
I was once afraid to tell a teacher about a bullying problem and she laughed in my face and called me a "spineless jellyfish". I'm 18 and I'll be starting my second semester of college but as lucrative as my job is (well to me anyway) I can't afraid to move out. I'm the black sheep of my family, I barely talk at family gatherings at isolate myself because of SA. I love them, but I just can't express myself well. If I move out I may become a hermit due to independence, SA and abscence of anyone else if I do buy/rent a place.