Your Life DOES NOT Have to be like this!
I feel for you. I had felt that way. Honestly, I do know, and am living, my title--Your life DOES NOT have to be like that. Myself and some of my family have a variety of biochemical imbalances--ocd, social anxiety, depression, anxiety, and have come to find individually that the RIGHT medication, starting slowly, and perhaps trying a few, that takes a dedicated PSYCHATRIST, and support, a counselor, social worker, or psychologist, to meet with to help work through your issues, your feelings, someone to validate you, WALK AROUND WITH YOU. Sometimes you have to try a few medications, and it takes a while for them to kick in, so perhaps something else short term, until the SSRI meds do. Also, find someone empathetic that will get to know you. Learning new ways to look at things, to challenge yourself in a postive way, to be able to diminsh that get stuck feeling, which is tormenting, you can live a better life. I am on zoloft 200mgm and it has made a huge difference in my life. One of the most important things is getting an accurate diagnosis from the psychiatrist, so the correct medications can be can be prescribed. I work on refuting irrational thoughts and ideas and taking healthy risks to fight against my fears. I feel proud when I accomplish it and the medication helps me to take action. I wish you all the best. Write back with any questions or thoughts.