Im 26 and "lost"
Before i write anything i just want to say that i have been honest in this post and i am fine if people want to leave me a message and tell me i am hopeless if i am honest i feel like my dreams died a long time ago along with my soul and i accept that.
i am 26 currently and i was adopted when i was about 3 my adoptive dad wasnt as loving as i would have liked and to cut it short i grew up being physically and emotionally abused, this basically left me with zero confidence and i always hid myself away so i missed my childhood, i regret it now as i have things i love mainly musicals and opera and i always wished that i had gone to a drama club as a child but now its to late,i have no friends at all, i am so unhappy with my life, i have a criminal conviction (and even though i will be judged im going to be honest) this conviction means that i am on the sex offenders until 2016. i didnt physically do anything i took a picture in a female toilet which i know now was the stupidest thing i could have done but i didnt have the confidence to face a female and at the time i was depressed and in a bad place, but i now know it was wrong and it ruined what little life was left in me and i regret it. I am just desperate now, i think of suicide all the time, but i am so desperate for that happy ending that you see in the movies all theatre, i dream all the time that i could have a family of my own intead of being lonely on my own forever and my heart breaks even writing this i have tears cause i dont feel like ill ever be normal or happy, i really dont know what else to do but i really dont want to be miserable any more. i am not a bad person i have just made bad choices. Mark