Social Anxiety Support

nameless1 · 11-02-2009, 04:41 PM

I had a frustrating day; it's been a frustrating year, really..... and on the way home from work I was crying and I had a sudden urge to smack myself in the face. I had this urge a couple times last week... to hurt myself... because I'm so angry at myself. I did it tonight; hard. Now I feel stupid for doing it but the urge was so strong.
Anyone ever do this..... ? I don't know what is wrong with me.

I'm seeing my therapist who I haven't seen in a year this week.

Qoder · 11-02-2009, 05:18 PM

If that's you in the avatar, you're obviously an attractive young woman. There are people out there who like you and would probably love to be in your situation.

Sometimes I'm overwhelmed by urges to harm myself. I usually bite my arm or one of my fingers. It usually leaves a mark for a while.

Stu · 11-02-2009, 05:20 PM

I often get the urge to bang my head into walls, usually because of something I've said or done which cannot be forgotten. It just seems like the only thing to do sometimes when the instant replay or shame-cam in your head can't be shut down.

Trust me, there's nothing you do, feel or think that a million people aren't going through right now with you. It's the people who don't have problems who are weird IMHO.

Good luck with your therapist!

Girl_Loner · 11-02-2009, 05:25 PM

Yip been there. It's a nice distraction but feel rather sillly after haha.

epril · 11-02-2009, 05:25 PM

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Originally Posted by nameless1

I had a frustrating day; it's been a frustrating year, really..... and on the way home from work I was crying and I had a sudden urge to smack myself in the face. I had this urge a couple times last week... to hurt myself... because I'm so angry at myself. I did it tonight; hard. Now I feel stupid for doing it but the urge was so strong.
Anyone ever do this..... ? I don't know what is wrong with me.

I'm seeing my therapist who I haven't seen in a year this week.

I used to do that a lot when my feelings were hurt or I wasn't being heard by my now husband. I couldn't stand the emotional pain so the slapping got rid of it. I did it once a few months ago, which surprised me. I've mostly settled down and learned how to cope with my feelings through therapy with the aid of med. It's such a scary thing to do for you and any one around you. I'm glad you had the courage to talk about it and that you will talk soon to your therapist!

Delicate · 11-02-2009, 05:27 PM

Yeah I feel that way quite a lot and I also feel kind of stupid for feeling like that and for doing that. I know what you mean though.

I think it's really good you're seeing your therapist again, it'll be stressful obviously but I hope it goes well.

Annie K · 11-02-2009, 05:45 PM

Yes, I often hit myself when I'm feeling overwhelmed with anxiety or when I'm really angry at myself. I always feel stupid for doing it, but I don't know how else to deal with those emotions.

Anyway, it's good that you're seeing your therapist again, and I hope it goes well.

i love seinfeld · 11-02-2009, 06:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Qoder

If that's you in the avatar, you're obviously an attractive young woman.

how can you tell what someone looks like just by their mouth?

nameless1 · 11-02-2009, 06:58 PM

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Originally Posted by i love seinfeld

how can you tell what someone looks like just by their mouth?

haha. It's not me in the avatar. Years ago, however, I was constantly told I should be a model.... I haven't heard that in forever. Maybe I'm just not as attractive anymore. Whatever.

Thank you everyone for the encouragement. Posting here and reading the responses is a therapy session in itself; it really helps to know I'm not alone.

I scared myself after the slap happened because I couldn't believe I actually went through with it. And it hurt. ha. I let out a huge scream at some point during the cry too. Guess it's good to do that every now and then.

Qoder: I'd bite myself too when I was younger! My mom put me in time out one day when I was about 9 for something and I bit my arm so hard that I bled..... I screamed "Look what you made me do!!" Of course she was helpless in the situation and didn't give a damn anyway. But yeah, biting myself was something that happened pretty frequently back in the day.

I wonder why we do these things??

Ohio Fatso · 11-02-2009, 06:58 PM

Well, she doesn't have a double chin. That's a good start. And you can see how far her shoulders go from her head. You can just tell that she's a nice size woman and not a fat blob. I don't see any facial hair either, so that's another plus.

No doubt she would be waaaaaaaaay out of my league.

We hit ourselves because we hate ourselves. It's as simple as that. We hate ourselves so much that we believe we should be beaten. Since nobody else will do it for us, we decide to do it ourselves. I used to punch myself in the head in high school. Did it until my senior year and only stopped because it started hurting too much. It made me kind of popular though, in a strange way. Kids I didn't even know would walk up and motion for me to clock myself in the forehead and I would oblige.

11-02-2009, 04:41 PM	#1 (permalink)
nameless1 Status: SAS Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: GA Gender: Female Age: 27 Posts: 40	I think I hate myself. I had a frustrating day; it's been a frustrating year, really..... and on the way home from work I was crying and I had a sudden urge to smack myself in the face. I had this urge a couple times last week... to hurt myself... because I'm so angry at myself. I did it tonight; hard. Now I feel stupid for doing it but the urge was so strong. Anyone ever do this..... ? I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm seeing my therapist who I haven't seen in a year this week.

11-02-2009, 05:27 PM	#6 (permalink)
Delicate Status: SAS Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: England Gender: Female Age: 21 Posts: 756	Yeah I feel that way quite a lot and I also feel kind of stupid for feeling like that and for doing that. I know what you mean though. I think it's really good you're seeing your therapist again, it'll be stressful obviously but I hope it goes well. __________________ Safety Rule Update# Don't talk to strangers... unless you want to meet anyone ever. Demetri Martin

11-02-2009, 05:18 PM	#2 (permalink)
Qoder Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Southwest USA Gender: Male Posts: 33	If that's you in the avatar, you're obviously an attractive young woman. There are people out there who like you and would probably love to be in your situation. Sometimes I'm overwhelmed by urges to harm myself. I usually bite my arm or one of my fingers. It usually leaves a mark for a while.

11-02-2009, 05:20 PM	#3 (permalink)
Stu Status: SAS Member Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Southern Hemisphere Gender: Male Age: 26 Posts: 36	I often get the urge to bang my head into walls, usually because of something I've said or done which cannot be forgotten. It just seems like the only thing to do sometimes when the instant replay or shame-cam in your head can't be shut down. Trust me, there's nothing you do, feel or think that a million people aren't going through right now with you. It's the people who don't have problems who are weird IMHO. Good luck with your therapist!

11-02-2009, 05:25 PM	#4 (permalink)
Girl_Loner Status: SAS Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: Cardboard Box Gender: Female Posts: 524	Yip been there. It's a nice distraction but feel rather sillly after haha.

11-02-2009, 05:45 PM	#7 (permalink)
Annie K Status: ........... Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Virginia Gender: Female Posts: 171	Yes, I often hit myself when I'm feeling overwhelmed with anxiety or when I'm really angry at myself. I always feel stupid for doing it, but I don't know how else to deal with those emotions. Anyway, it's good that you're seeing your therapist again, and I hope it goes well.

11-02-2009, 06:58 PM	#10 (permalink)
Ohio Fatso Status: SAS Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Ohio Gender: Male Posts: 758	Well, she doesn't have a double chin. That's a good start. And you can see how far her shoulders go from her head. You can just tell that she's a nice size woman and not a fat blob. I don't see any facial hair either, so that's another plus. No doubt she would be waaaaaaaaay out of my league. We hit ourselves because we hate ourselves. It's as simple as that. We hate ourselves so much that we believe we should be beaten. Since nobody else will do it for us, we decide to do it ourselves. I used to punch myself in the head in high school. Did it until my senior year and only stopped because it started hurting too much. It made me kind of popular though, in a strange way. Kids I didn't even know would walk up and motion for me to clock myself in the forehead and I would oblige.