Just have to get this off my mind...
Does anyone else ALWAYS
doubt or second guess their self? It seems like no matter what I am thinking of doing, or what I am in the middle of doing, or what I have already accomplished, somewhere along the way I always find a way to either doubt myself, put myself down, or try to undermine my own accomplishments.
It's like I can never give myself credit or have faith in myself to do anything, whether it's something simple such as having the confidence to walk up and just hold a conversation (or even just say "Hi" with a smile) with a girl I find cute, or a huge project for school. It could even be just a thought or idea; I will visualize the whole scenario, and somewhere along the way, there always seems to be this voice in my head that pops up and spews negativity and self-doubt, holding me back from going for it and just totally shredding my confidence.
It just feels ridiculous to me, because sometimes I truly know deep down that I can get the job done, or that I have already done something worthy of being proud of, yet I STILL
find a way to put myself down constantly until every single tiny bit
of self-esteem I have is gone, no matter what adversity I'm facing. Then depression rears its ugly head and downhill I go. It makes it nearly impossible to build any sort of self-confidence in any part of my life. It almost feels like I'm my own bully.
Can anyone else relate?