Finding my way
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: London, ON, Canada
Re: I hate phony people
I often feel that way with complete strangers I know nothing about. I assume that I am superior in them in some way, probably in intelligence. In a way I would rather feel inferior in the presence of other people than superior, but I believe they are two sides of the same dysfunctional coin anyway. And yet I can barely say hi back to strangers when they say hi to me, and I NEVER say hi to anyone I don't know unless I am being introduced by someone else.
(I'm glad I finally let that out so it doesn't simmer inside my head as much)
I am opening myself up wide to your criticism, I have long recognized the irrationality of my attitude, but don't know where to go from there. I am afraid of opening myself up to people. I don't mind judgment because I am ready for this to change.
"Believe that life can change
That you're not stuck in vain"
-- The Smashing Pumpkins, "Tonight, Tonight"