I Feel Like I'm Very Stupid
When I hear a big word I've never heard of, fail a test, look over things that were completely obvious, etc., I can't help to think it. I look at people like biologists, engineers, archeologists (and even some people here), and can't help to think that my intellect is far inferior from theirs. This feeling is also one of the main reasons I quit college, aside from the SA.
Even when I was working years ago, I would **** up the most simplest of tasks to the point that they lowered my responsibility to basically taking out garbage and I was looked at as the office special person with very low competency.
I know deep down that I'm not stupid, but on the whole I think I am. I would really like to know how it feels to actually like myself and not feel like I'm dull minded/ugly/a waste of life and oxygen.
"Okay, fine. Let's all act like humans. 'Look at me. Boy, do I love sweating. Let's convert beef and leaves into energy and excrete them later and go shopping.'"- GLaDOS