I don't feel important
Anyone else feel like this? On the other hand, does anyone feel like what they do IS important and can explain to me what puts you into this state of mind?
I sometimes feel like all is for naught. I can't seem to motivate myself to work hard. I'm not just talking about social situations- I mean work, school, and life in general. I don't feel like I have much to offer, and anything I work at doesn't seem good enough to be of any long-term benefit to me, my family, or anyone else.
Even if I do something that intellectually seems beneficial, the people who are close to me in my life don't seem to care IN THE RIGHT WAY. They care about the ends but not the means. For instance, my family cares if I get a degree or make money, but they don't care about how I get there. But I need support during THE PROCESS which I don't get. I mean, I wish they would care about what I learned and how, if I feel at peace, if I made friends, etc. I don't feel like the process of improving myself is valued and appreciated.
While I write this, the thought keeps coming to my head that motivation must come from within, but I'm not sure if that's entirely true. I think I also need to be surrounded by people who approach things in life with great care and importance- it inspires me to take the same approach.