I am really finding life difficult right now

[sociallybehind]

I am realizing how hard life is.
At work, I severely lack communication skills. At meetings, on the phone, in person, eating lunch with co-workers, why am I so messed up in the head?
I find that I have so many things I need to improve if I want to make it in the corporate world

I'm nearly broke and the bills keep piling in.

I lost the girl who I really liked to another guy because I'm such an innocent damn wussy
There's no joy or motivation to do much in life. I envy those who are enjoying life....
I have no real friends and it has been this way for the past 9 years.
I'm almost mute and very serious around others because I neglected to develop a personality or an interesting life for the past 9 years.

There's a reason why I'm so hidden and hate dealing with people so I keep choosing to be alone

I feel like my confidence level is at an all time low... how can I bounce back?

[snowfly]

WIsh I had advice for you but I'm in the same place. Brother called from Iraq earlier, I wish I could be like a normal sister and have something interesting to say. Having conversations with anyone is a huge effort on my part so I try to avoid them completely.

[sociallybehind]

I can't believe that I am 25 years old and have stupid social problems like these

[nihlanth1]

I feel the same way man. Whenever I walk from my cubicle to the break room or the bathroom I make sure that no-one is already walking there because I simply have too much anxiety even looking at people walking by as I am walking to my destination. I avoid saying hello to people in the break room and I hate it when there are people already there. It increases my stress levels so much I feel exhuasted just being around people at work. It seems to keep getting worse; it has even affected my personal life. I dont have the energy to even work-out anymore since whenever I come home I am so exhuasted from anxiety. I loose my train of thought easily and whenever I feel sadness I feel a sickening sensation of nausea instead. I loose weight and gain weght rapidly. I could gain or loose 5 lbs within a few days. I feel like I am falling apart even though im not on any medication nor have been recently. I feel like Im 60 yrs old but I am only 23.

It makes me sad/angry to hear that you lost a girl to another guy because I knnow that hurts a lot. It is understandable that there is no motivation for life. I wish I knew how to bounce back from low confidence. THe only time I was ever confident when I was 5-8 yrs old. I dont even know what confidence feels like anymore.

[dax]

Originally Posted by sociallybehind

I am realizing how hard life is.
At work, I severely lack communication skills. At meetings, on the phone, in person, eating lunch with co-workers, why am I so messed up in the head?
I find that I have so many things I need to improve if I want to make it in the corporate world

I'm nearly broke and the bills keep piling in.

I could have wrote this myself. I've realized there is nothing you can do other than to exist simply because it is better than non-existing and to self-medicate when possible because it takes you to another place away from this world of ****.

[31GoingOn13]

Originally Posted by sociallybehind

I can't believe that I am 25 years old and have stupid social problems like these

I'm (almost) 31.

Julianne Moore once said during an interview that while most people grow more comfortable and confident with age, some become more anxious and unsure of themselves with each passing year. She was referring to a character she was playing, but those words really resonated with me-- and not in a good way.

I don't want to be a more unsteady, unstable version of myself at each passing birthday. I'll be 31 in a few weeks and I think (ok, know) this seemingly endless anxiety changes only by worsening. It's pretty disheartening.

[Hot Chocolate]

Gosh, why are you like me?

I lost so much work opportunities and always mistaken as slow just because I was so anxious to even explain myself or ask for proper help. I love explaining things in less than 5 words and this apparently offended and caused impatience in people and they just automatically thought that I was incapable.

ya, I find it difficult to live life like that too

(wow, I spent a few minutes staring at this message lol)

[shyvr6]

I could tell you how to start to bounce back, but you probably won't like it.

[mypasswordneverworks]

same here

[ANCIENT]

[Fake $20]

I am 25 and I deal with similar issues, you are not alone outhere, my advice would be to hell with everybody and to try one or two things you like!!!!