How many of you feel indifferent towards living?

[dunno1234]

Originally Posted by sonofanarchy

That's me. I couldn't care if all of a sudden some dude just pulls out a gun and shoots me right in the noggin. I'm indifferent. I'm not suicidal. But logically, if I were indifferent, I would have taken my life by now. But I haven't, clearly. I think it's just out of respect for my parents. They've invested time, and money into me, and for me to just drop dead, it would be disrespectful.

Most of the time, I imagine myself dying in a glorified way. Like, for example. I imagine a building burning down, and then me being the "courageous" mo-fo that I am, barge in there and save an old lady and her 3000 cats. Fortunately, I die in the process. Sometimes I just wish for an opportunity like that. An excuse to die. I really don't care about a ****ing old lady or her cats.

Yeah. Life can be a pedophile rapist sometimes, but just remember once you're dead you can't buy a pack of gum or cigarettes or go to the movies or do anything really.

Imagine you being all dead and stuff and walking into a store and saying to the guy on the counter "hey mister give me some of that gum right there and a coconut."

But he won't give you gum and a coconut because he can't hear or see you because you're dead. And you can't complain to the Better Business Bureau because you're dead and your voice box doesn't work. You'll be on the phone with them and they'll hang up because your phone's dead. Get it? So that would suck.

Originally Posted by sonofanarchy

EDIT: So, guys, tell me about some of your imagined glorified death scenes =]

OK. So I'm in court testifying as a witness, I put my hand on the Quran swearing to tell the truth, and then once I speak God strikes me down and kills me real good for lying. To me I'd find that hilarious plus less people will lie in general and kids will stop saying "I swear to God I didn't pick my nose" because they know God will KILL THEM.

[mbcdn]

The pain I feel in my heart at times is so great I feel like dying is the only freedom from it. My crutch is my family, I don't have any real life friends so nobody would morn me, but my family would and I'd never do anything like that to them.

So I continue to suffer, only difference now is that I'm trying to change things to make me feel better but unfortunately the pain remains.

[sonofanarchy]

OK. So I'm in court testifying as a witness, I put my hand on the Quran swearing to tell the truth, and then once I speak God strikes me down and kills me real good for lying. To me I'd find that hilarious plus less people will lie in general and kids will stop saying "I swear to God I didn't pick my nose" because they know God will KILL THEM.

That's awesome

[sonofanarchy]

Originally Posted by mbcdn

The pain I feel in my heart at times is so great I feel like dying is the only freedom from it. My crutch is my family, I don't have any real life friends so nobody would morn me, but my family would and I'd never do anything like that to them.

So I continue to suffer, only difference now is that I'm trying to change things to make me feel better but unfortunately the pain remains.

I feel ya bro'. But not in a homosexical way. I don't have any friends that would mourn me either.

[becky07]

Yes, I feel the way you do. I don't really care one way or the other. I often struggle with suicidal thoughts but can't go through with it because of family stuff, wouldn't want to hurt them, and I know they need me. However, I don't really care if I die some other way. To me, death is a part of life and it's going to happen someday, so I don't live in fear of it.

[Namida]

Yeah I feel that there's no purpose in learning/doing things i enjoy if i cant express them to others :/

[arnie]

Originally Posted by UltraShy

Think Gabby Lee Giffords -- gun shots to the head are not universally fatal. You have a risk of survival, though not without damage, as if SA just isn't enough to totally screw you over already.

gabby had a crowd of people rushing to stop the bleeding. if you are alone when it happens, then you're not going to survive.

[buutenks]

Well i dont think that i am indifferent towards living but how economy is **** and stuff especially in my country i dont see wut a future i got,sorta hopeless.But if id die i wish it would be an awesome death ^^

[Aki ne]

allow me to be lazy haha:

Originally Posted by Meta14

I'm pretty indifferent too. I just don't want to be in pain before I die.

[Addler]

I'm just going through the motions these past several years. I don't really have a plan for my life, and if it stopped suddenly, I wouldn't mind.

In my fantasies, I go out as some noble sacrifice, either protecting people from a school shooter or letting my comrades get away from the zombie onslaught. But I'm a coward, so those won't happen.

[Jema]

Hi Y'all

Saw this thread. Caught my eye. I think the big problem for most of us is this modern technology. I mean, most of us play it safe and hide behind the Internet or texting, messaging and the likes. We. Would be better off if there were no internet, texting, messaging, cable TV. At least I know this is my biggest problem. If none of those things existed and I wasn't so hooked on them, I would be forced to get out in the world and learn how to interact with people, try new things, develop some social skills. I just keep playing it safe and stay home with my hobby, the Internet.

I feel exactly the same. Indifferent.

[Beelz]

Originally Posted by sonofanarchy

That's me. I couldn't care if all of a sudden some dude just pulls out a gun and shoots me right in the noggin. I'm indifferent. I'm not suicidal. But logically, if I were indifferent, I would have taken my life by now. But I haven't, clearly. I think it's just out of respect for my parents. They've invested time, and money into me, and for me to just drop dead, it would be disrespectful.=]

Ditto, tbh i imagine my self dead but doing something really akward like if i died after masterbating...

[Ivywinds]

Originally Posted by Jema

Hi Y'all

Saw this thread. Caught my eye. I think the big problem for most of us is this modern technology. I mean, most of us play it safe and hide behind the Internet or texting, messaging and the likes. We. Would be better off if there were no internet, texting, messaging, cable TV. At least I know this is my biggest problem. If none of those things existed and I wasn't so hooked on them, I would be forced to get out in the world and learn how to interact with people, try new things, develop some social skills. I just keep playing it safe and stay home with my hobby, the Internet.

I feel exactly the same. Indifferent.

I do agree to a certain extent. However, internet has also had some positive affects on me. Without the internet I would not shape the views the same way. (of course books still top information)

And I have to agree that sitting hours in front of the computer with little to no real-life interaction with people can make me extremely depressed. Sometimes it's OK to get comfortable first. Since the real world may discourage us. xD

[Scotty23]

I'd much rather be dead than alive.

[Octavius]

I would imagine dying in a bus crash or a bank robbery (shot by one of the robbers). I'm not inly indifferent. I do wish I died.

[mzmz]

if u tell poeple you are sad or lonley or want death they either think loony bin or cry baby

its not like they are gonna find something to help you or anything.
i dont like people right now i think i got like this bcuase i felt so closed off

now i dont even care, and the only reason im even on the site is i think maybe this is wrong my head says fix it evrything else says meh

[iloverum]

o well, this could be a blessing in disguise, having the mind of not caring if you live or die means you are free, its actually a healthy mental attitude to possess i think, there are millions of third worlders and nomadic living peoples who must have this thinking to get them through a day.

[Jema]

It depends what one really means by indifferent towards living! I think I use this aloof angle because I truly am a coward so I make excuses for myself not caring so I don't have to face the reality of how I am living my life so i don't have to summon some courage to go out and do things with my life. My therapist is working with me setting weekly goals to go out and experience new things to get exposure. She says SA is easy to treat. It's all about exposure. I find it is easier for me to be indifferent than to be courageous. Indifference is kind of courageous in a self destructive way. Lol.

Maybe the title should be "indifferent towards dying" judging how most are replying here.

[gentleman caller]

Originally Posted by iloverum

o well, this could be a blessing in disguise, having the mind of not caring if you live or die means you are free, its actually a healthy mental attitude to possess i think, there are millions of third worlders and nomadic living peoples who must have this thinking to get them through a day.

It has the opposite effect on me. I find it hard to find the motivation to do anything because I don't about care living.

[Eirene]

I'm utterly indifferent towards living, but, as crazy as this sounds, I don't want to die. I wouldn't care if I just ceased to exist, but if someone were to put a bullet through my brain... Well, I suppose it's the violent side of death that I dislike. That, and the body that is left behind - don't know why, really, it just disturbs me. I wish it would just disappear once a person dies.

And yes, I know I'm being silly and childish.