How many of you feel indifferent towards living?

[sonofanarchy]

That's me. I couldn't care if all of a sudden some dude just pulls out a gun and shoots me right in the noggin. I'm indifferent. I'm not suicidal. But logically, if I were indifferent, I would have taken my life by now. But I haven't, clearly. I think it's just out of respect for my parents. They've invested time, and money into me, and for me to just drop dead, it would be disrespectful.

Most of the time, I imagine myself dying in a glorified way. Like, for example. I imagine a building burning down, and then me being the "courageous" mo-fo that I am, barge in there and save an old lady and her 3000 cats. Fortunately, I die in the process. Sometimes I just wish for an opportunity like that. An excuse to die. I really don't care about a ****ing old lady or her cats.

EDIT: So, guys, tell me about some of your imagined glorified death scenes =]

[Black And Mild]

*sigh* I'm bad at making people feel good, but ill try anyways.

You seem like a pretty smart guy to me. Even if you don't care if you die, I'm sure that because you are so smart, you would be greatly missed if you did. What I'm trying to say is that, losing a man like you would be detrimental to society as a whole. So live on for the sake of society

[Meta14]

I'm pretty indifferent too. I just don't want to be in pain before I die.

[sonofanarchy]

Originally Posted by Black And Mild

*sigh* I'm bad at making people feel good, but ill try anyways.

You seem like a pretty smart guy to me. Even if you don't care if you die, I'm sure that because you are so smart, you would be greatly missed if you did. What I'm trying to say is that, losing a man like you would be detrimental to society as a whole. So live on for the sake of society

I'm not looking to feel good, or support. But thanks.
I'm just looking to talk, because I'm going crazy from social isolation.

[GaaraAgain]

I feel like that a lot, but when I do, I try to focus on the things that make living worth it. That's been working less and less lately though.

[sonofanarchy]

Originally Posted by GaaraAgain

I feel like that a lot, but when I do, I try to focus on the things that make living worth it. That's been working less and less lately though.

Yeah, samesies. I progressively have less and less to live for.

[TheQuietGirl20]

Originally Posted by sonofanarchy

That's me. I couldn't care if all of a sudden some dude just pulls out a gun and shoots me right in the noggin. I'm indifferent. I'm not suicidal. But logically, if I were indifferent, I would have taken my life by now. But I haven't, clearly. I think it's just out of respect for my parents. They've invested time, and money into me, and for me to just drop dead, it would be disrespectful.

Most of the time, I imagine myself dying in a glorified way. Like, for example. I imagine a building burning down, and then me being the "courageous" mo-fo that I am, barge in there and save an old lady and her 3000 cats. Fortunately, I die in the process. Sometimes I just wish for an opportunity like that. An excuse to die. I really don't care about a ****ing old lady or her cats.

I know what you mean. I've been feeling indifferent to dying as well. Have you thought about therapy? I'm in therapy and I'm going to talk to my doctor about it next session.

[sippzta]

Hey sonsofanarchy, I definitely know how you feel about feeling indifferent about dying. I am in the same position as you and also think about scenarios where I die as a result. I think what may keep us going is that sliver of hope tucked away in the back of our minds. I dont know if that holds true for you but I think that could be a possibility?

[TigerRifle1]

I read obituraries a lot and every so often I read about someone my age who dies whom had everything going for them and I wonder why they had to the die and I get left behind. I'm not actively planning my suicide, that is if you don't count driving around looking for drunk drivers as planning. But if I died tommorrow I wouldn't care, at this point the pain my suicide would cause my family is the only thing keeping me from doing it.

[Syndacus]

It's kinda how I live my life, knowing at any moment or any given time something bad will happen. I make the best of the day as I can thinking I may not have the best day tomorrow. I don't care what people think of how detrimental my life is in their society, I believe that's just another one of those lines that people say in an attempt to make them feel like they had helped, but don't really give a flying **** in the process.

So why should I give a **** about them, not like I lay my life in their hands for them to control and say when and how I shouldn't die. I would still lay my life down for someone in need, or save a person. Perhaps my self-worth is close to zero still and feel that someone is always gonna be better than myself so I put them at the forefront. Confusing isn't it?

[mysterioussoul]

OP: what you've described is exactly how i feel.

i too feel indifferent. i have nothing to look forward to and feel like no matter what happens in my life i will never be truly happy.

i've contemplated suicide plenty of times, but i don't think i could ever go through with it. i'm scared of the unknown.

there have been plenty of times in which i've imagined myself dying in a courageous way as well. like a car is about to hit a kid and i pushed her/him out of the way and sacrificed myself.

[Xtraneous]

Word.

[Ephemeral]

Originally Posted by mysterioussoul

OP: what you've described is exactly how i feel.

i too feel indifferent. i have nothing to look forward to and feel like no matter what happens in my life i will never be truly happy.

i've contemplated suicide plenty of times, but i don't think i could ever go through with it. i'm scared of the unknown.

there have been plenty of times in which i've imagined myself dying in a courageous way as well. like a car is about to hit a kid and i pushed her/him out of the way and sacrificed myself.

This is exactly how I feel. Life is just the same dreary, insipid ****, day after day. I suppose I might feel differently if I could realistically foresee a more promising future, but that just isn't the case. I'm living, but I barely feel alive. Experientially, I feel like my life might be reasonably likened to color-blindness—sight without fully grasping what it is to see . . . a pale imitation devoid of true vision's vivacity.

[RawrJessiRawr]

Originally Posted by sonofanarchy:1059768808

That's me. I couldn't care if all of a sudden some dude just pulls out a gun and shoots me right in the noggin. I'm indifferent. I'm not suicidal. But logically, if I were indifferent, I would have taken my life by now. But I haven't, clearly. I think it's just out of respect for my parents. They've invested time, and money into me, and for me to just drop dead, it would be disrespectful.

Most of the time, I imagine myself dying in a glorified way. Like, for example. I imagine a building burning down, and then me being the "courageous" mo-fo that I am, barge in there and save an old lady and her 3000 cats. Fortunately, I die in the process. Sometimes I just wish for an opportunity like that. An excuse to die. I really don't care about a ****ing old lady or her cats.

Same here, I feel this way often

[Kascheritt]

Same, I imagine my death sometimes. Yesterday it was getting stabbed, with a sword xD It would suck to die the next day, I won't be able to finish my drawing oh the horror...

[Not You]

I just don't see the point of life.

[Alexestalex]

Originally Posted by sonofanarchy

I'm not looking to feel good, or support. But thanks.
I'm just looking to talk, because I'm going crazy from social isolation.

Hey can we pleaae chat? My email is alexestalex@gmail.com

I read youe post and it sounds very relateable. Im not suicidal but i just really think we couls both benefit and learn more by talking.

Thanks

[MrTweak]

We all have a death sentence.

I like to think when I die it will be exactly like the 16 billion years before I was born... OVER IN NO TIME xD.
Death is where there is nothing, absolutely nothing, no time, no feeling, etc. The feelings of those left alive are meaningless when you are dead since you'd be well... dead!

You sound like you need a reason to live and many would turn to religion or something like it but in this situation I suggest you go and read some philosophy books. You may find a purpose in humanism, A reason to live in existentialism, or an escape from reality with nihilism.

I hope you find what you are looking for because I know you'd rather have that old lady and 3000 cats incinerated lolololololol. Dying for that would be a massive derp. If you really wanted to die for something meaningful you would have signed up for the army :P I don't think you are really the kind of person who needs a reason to die because you don't even have a reason to live.

[dk321]

Yeah, I feel this way a lot.
Living/dying doesn't seem to really bother me too much.

[Wohwoh]

I'm indifferent as well but I don't plan on killing myself because maybe, just MAYBE sometime in the future things might change. If I killed myself, then that means I might of killed something great that would've happened in the future before it even began.
You know what I mean? I have a hard time explaining things sometimes, ha.