Social Anxiety Support

Social_butterfly00 · 11-03-2009, 04:08 PM

Lately I've been very... confused and frustrated with the way my life is going. I went back on anti-depressants in September when I started my third year of University. I've also started regular therapy again and am addressing all my issues. I have a past of drug abuse/alcohol abuse but that was over 4 years ago. I've been doing really well in the education and job sense, but things are rough lately. I've been abusing ritalin, clonazapam, and other prescription drugs. Now it has gotten to the point where I feel like I need to take a ritalin in the morning or something, when I never had these urges before. I've hit this emotional level of not even know what the heck I'm doing anymore. I've become so lazy and unmotivated. Even though I have no "serious" issues with either drugs or alcohol, I feel like my soul has been robbed by something.

I have been opening up a lot in therapy and I think that things are getting worse before they get better since old wounds are being opened. I'm entering into an eating disorder clinic in February and I hope that will help some.

Right now I don't feel like myself and rather, I dont even know who I am really. I'm lonely, depressed, isolated, numb, and anything else you can think of. I carry on everyday but barely. I'm maintaining the bare minimum of existing.

Even now I feel like taking a ritalin just to feel some sort of spark ignited in my soul.

11-03-2009, 04:08 PM	#1 (permalink)
Social_butterfly00 Status: SAS Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: In a city Gender: Female Posts: 445	Frustration of life Lately I've been very... confused and frustrated with the way my life is going. I went back on anti-depressants in September when I started my third year of University. I've also started regular therapy again and am addressing all my issues. I have a past of drug abuse/alcohol abuse but that was over 4 years ago. I've been doing really well in the education and job sense, but things are rough lately. I've been abusing ritalin, clonazapam, and other prescription drugs. Now it has gotten to the point where I feel like I need to take a ritalin in the morning or something, when I never had these urges before. I've hit this emotional level of not even know what the heck I'm doing anymore. I've become so lazy and unmotivated. Even though I have no "serious" issues with either drugs or alcohol, I feel like my soul has been robbed by something. I have been opening up a lot in therapy and I think that things are getting worse before they get better since old wounds are being opened. I'm entering into an eating disorder clinic in February and I hope that will help some. Right now I don't feel like myself and rather, I dont even know who I am really. I'm lonely, depressed, isolated, numb, and anything else you can think of. I carry on everyday but barely. I'm maintaining the bare minimum of existing. Even now I feel like taking a ritalin just to feel some sort of spark ignited in my soul.