First day back at school.

[jtl]

Hello Im jacob

I just joined the site and this is my second post

Today was the first day back at school, I stupidly dropped out last year and got a job, i just couldn't cope with school, but then found out working was a lot worse, so now I'm back at school and hating it after the first day, this is not a good sign.

So now I will play out my day for you all

Woke up at 2am could not get back to sleep for the life of me

Hopped on the internet to kill some time

at around 6am I had my shower and got ready for school

I chilled in my room and drank two jim beam cans that I had left over from a night out, to relax myself
(this is a first, Im not an alcoholic,and yes I know this is bad.)

so I was killing time in my room, actually really chill and relaxed confident felt great about the day ahead

my mum drives me to school, we stop by the milkbar so i can get a redbull, I figure it will make me more out going, I get two of the massive ones and drink one before school

Long story short, got to school, didnt talk to anyone in my classes all day, felt so uneasy and uncomfortable, I wanted to talk but just couldnt!

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now its 5.39am, guess what time i woke up 2.30am!!

I have school soon, so i guess i will start getting ready

hopefully today will be different and i grow a pair and can actually make a friend or two

Im hating myself so bad right now, only my self to blame i guess.

that is my rant

fml

will fill you in how my day went after school

[jtl]

Originally Posted by Banzai

Hi jtl,

Welcome to SAS. Sorry to hear about your bad day. First impressions are always important so even if you're anxious, even if it means dragging yourself through hell, seriously push yourself to become more social. After the initial several weeks, cliques beging to form and you'll just find it harder and harder to make friends. So it's now or never. Chuck on a smile, have some initial questions in your head (e.g "what are you studying?", "how are you finding it?" etc etc), elaborate on your answers rather than just giving simple yes/no responses and keep your body language open! Remember that none of these people know who you are or what you are like. Don't let them put the "quiet" label on you already! Good luck

Thank you so much man for the kind words, today went fairly well, i felt really chill all day, and actually communicated with others

pretty good all up,