feeling like i should have never been born

[aloss4words]

I feel like I should have never been born because it seems like I don't fit it anywhere. I might as well not be at any of the places I am at. No one would care if I wasn't in their lives.

[Prakas]

I know exactly how you feel. If I was to disappear, no one would notice except my mother and dog.

I don't know what advice I can give you, except to keep chugging along and hope for the best. When your down and out, it can only get better hopefully.

[tvgirl48]

I can relate. There are so many times when I've thought it would be better if I didn't exist. So many times where all I can think is that I'm a huge waste of space, a waste of money, a waste of time. That if I died tomorrow the only people who would be affected would be my mom, dad, and maybe one sort-of friend. But she's got many other better friends, and I'm not close with my brother and sister so they all would be fine. My mom and dad would miss me because they are obligated to care about me, which is why I will always have at least two people who give a frick about me. But I feel like a giant disappointment. I'm not the daughter they deserve.

But I'm here. And I'm going to stick it out and hang on for the ride because 1) I'm curious to see how my life will play out and 2) I believe that when you die, you're dead, that's it, I'm not going to discard my one life carelessly. Life can suck and hurt like a b**** but I'm going to hold on and live it. You never know when something good might happen. Like that quote from Castaway, just keep breathing because you never know what might happen. I think life could be like one of those really long books that takes forever to set up the characters and plot and the exposition is boring, but after everything is set up the story hits its rhythm and at the end you realize it was much better than you thought it would be. Just my humble opinion.

[Prakas]

Originally Posted by tvgirl48

I can relate. There are so many times when I've thought it would be better if I didn't exist. So many times where all I can think is that I'm a huge waste of space, a waste of money, a waste of time. That if I died tomorrow the only people who would be affected would be my mom, dad, and maybe one sort-of friend. But she's got many other better friends, and I'm not close with my brother and sister so they all would be fine. My mom and dad would miss me because they are obligated to care about me, which is why I will always have at least two people who give a frick about me. But I feel like a giant disappointment. I'm not the daughter they deserve.

But I'm here. And I'm going to stick it out and hang on for the ride because 1) I'm curious to see how my life will play out and 2) I believe that when you die, you're dead, that's it, I'm not going to discard my one life carelessly. Life can suck and hurt like a b**** but I'm going to hold on and live it. You never know when something good might happen. Like that quote from Castaway, just keep breathing because you never know what might happen. I think life could be like one of those really long books that takes forever to set up the characters and plot and the exposition is boring, but after everything is set up the story hits its rhythm and at the end you realize it was much better than you thought it would be. Just my humble opinion.

I envy your outlook on life.

[millenniumman75]

Originally Posted by aloss4words

I feel like I should have never been born because it seems like I don't fit it anywhere. I might as well not be at any of the places I am at. No one would care if I wasn't in their lives.

Are you sure about that?
There are people here who do care!
I am certain there are people in your life who value you.
Don't let thoughts like these take hold; you are better than this! .

[secretlyshecries]

I feel like this a lot.

[kakashisensei]

I feel the same way. It's like you've taken the words out of my mouth