Feeling frustrated over my voice

[rko74]

A little back history, i've had social phobia/disorder porbably my whole life.I quit high school and lived at home from about 1990 till 2006 this year.I tried some life skills program at first then i met two friends through that.I eventually decided to try a part time job {32hrs/week} after the life skills thing.I went to someone to get a resume made up and submitted it to the local grocery store down the hill.Long story short i got a job in the produce dept and i been working there close to 6 months now.

What bothers me is my soft spoken voice, {or nervousness/apprehension} while attempting to converse with my co workers.When i go to say something i always feel like im mumbling or not loud enough {its difficult to just make basic conversation for me with them}.My employer is aware of my problem and has said your doing fine, i even appologised because im quiet etc.What i also find hard is walking around from the front of the store to the back where i get the produce.I find it uncomfortable walking past my co workers.Not knowing whether to make eye contact, say something or what.Most of the day im in a pretty big amount of discomfort inside myself, it varies day to day.

Im always thinking that so and so guy in the fish dept thinks im weird or cant talk or what.I say hi or morning to people in other depts when i walk around and it pains me to do that but i do it.I kinda feel like i get nervous looking stares back cause i look so uncomfortable or wont engage in conversation when i say hi or whatever.I'll give you an example

I go past the meat dept and see Maureen the friendly meat lady and say hi and or how are you.She says hi back how are you, and i barely can make out a oh pretty good or good {its pains me to say stuff like this kinda feeling}Either they wont be able to hear me or say what? What i want to say is "im good" how are you in a confident manner.

I just get fed up feeling like im not progressing getting over my fears while into the job 6 months now.Anyone know what could help me?

[shy_chick]

CBT? Practicing talking at home on your own in front of a mirror?
Sorry, not much help, but hope it gets better, I'm a real mumbler. I often have to repeat myself, or say hi so quietly no-one actually knows I'm talking to them.
Everyone says our phone is a "bad line" but I don't know if that is me, or the phone as OH doesn't have problems.

[dear catastrophe student]

i feel the same way, hence my thread here: http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/for ... hp?t=56050

i also panic about whether to say anything when walking past people etc.. i think the best thing to do is pretend to be in a dream like state (where for me, i have no issues with nerves etc).. i guess eventually you'll learn to forget all these negatives thoughts about your voice and stuff..