Join Date: Oct 2010
Location: Daydreaming of somewhere better...
Feeling Alienated From Humanity
Hey there everyone! Does anyone else here feel completely alienated from people? I feel like I don't connect at all. Socializing is supposed to be innate but it feels so forced and unnatural when I try. Also lately I've been feeling spiteful towards people. I don't know why, usually I try not to judge. Even with my best friend I've been feeling anger towards her! I don't understand why, she's done nothing wrong. I don't think she is aware of my feelings and I hope they will disappear soon. Otherwise it'll ruin our friendship and I will be completely alone.
Other than the fact that I suck at socializing and am feeling spiteful, I feel like I'm losing the basic traits that make people human. What I mean is that because of my anxiety I barely eat. I can't remember the last time I felt hunger!! I'm not getting a lot of sleep and I don't really feel tired. What's worse is that I think I've been supressing a lot of emotions. I feel so detached and unaffected by what goes on around me. I'm not passionate about anything in life. All of this stuff adds up and makes me feel like a robot. I hate it. I think I need a hug. Anyways I just needed to complain about all that stuff. Maybe I'll talk to my social worker about it. Dunno if she'd be able to help though, I mean it's not really anxiety related.
Anyways, yeah. Do any of you feel at all alienated? Or am I alone in feeling alienated?? Lol.
I'm on the persuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold. I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good. Tell me what you know about dreamin' dreamin'. You don't really know about nothin' nothin'.