my life is just wasting away, the social anxiety has completly ruined my life and I think potentional for a good future, and thinking about it just makes me feel the most overwhelming feeling of desperation & hopelessness. Seeing everyone Around me doing so much with thier lives, always going out and about with thier friends and just getting great experiences and making the most of thier youth makes me feel like the biggest loser on earth and like anyone who knows me should be embarrassed to even talk to me.
as a kid what I loved doing was acting,singing,dancing, drawing&writing. But at college I was doing something irrelevant to any of that (and I regret it) and now think its too late to try and pursue the only things I really enjoy doing
I'm too embarrassed to even write all thats wrong with my life right now
But i'm so glad I found this forum and saw there's other people in the position who have to put up with the evil SA everyday!
I think one of the things I want more than anything right now is some loyal
friends who like my personality, there's a few who do but I hardly meet up with them now, and I just want to live a full happy life like I should be at my age, I know this is long but I was reflecting on myself and my lack of achievements & positives in life and felt sooo bad I had to just write it down