whats the point?
hey im 17 and im a failure in live. im in highschool as a senior but im always thinking about my life.. i have no hope my gpa is bad and the only choice is join the military service and go to war and die but i always wanted to become a fashion designer and im not gay, im just interested in clothing designs and be successful but i never did good in my art classes, i wasted my entire highschool career on history. but i cant even be a damn historian cause my grades are terrible, most of my friends are talking about their good life and being something in life, they are getting ready for prom, college and etc & thats just makes me feel useless, sometimes i asked myself what the hell i am doing here? i got no hope, i never asked to be born. i usually get depressed and theres a rope waiting for me at my room and a little hanger thingy to clip the rope and just hang myself cause i really dont see nothing in my future. Right now im working as a busboy and it sucks, i really dont wanna end up like my parents, im not saying their arent bad jobs but the thing my parents were always there for me and i let them down and its very sad. i just suck at living life, every relationship i had, i ended up having depression. I always think of my ex, she having a better life than me, and ofcourse people told me to move on but i just cant. well i dont know what to say anymore, my life its just a mess and it cant fixed. im scared to face the real world, theres so much things i dont think im ready for it ... So the only solution is hanging myself or what other options i have ?