It's such a strange experience... having social anxiety and being physically attractive.
Even when people tell you that you are cute or hot, it's hard to believe them.
(And doesn't it sound shallow to say of yourself "Oh, I know
am attractive" ... even if you are absolutely gorgeous
... it's embarrassing to admit and it turns people off, doesn't it?)
With social anxiety, it's weird because you don't know if people are avoiding you because
1.they're too afraid to to approach you or
2. you think there is something "wrong" with you! LOL
And when you realize (your cuteness) does draw attention to yourself... the SA makes it hard to know how to deal with the attention.
Does anyone else experience this?
During college entrance exams, I was sitting next to a couple of young guys...the testing room was completely quiet during the exam...I was concentrating on my test...when I hear one of the boys whisper to his friend, "Hey, do you see that girl over there? She's hot!"
A heat-wave of panic washed over me, I froze, my face went red, I started sweating... I didn't know what to do!
Having SA and being physically attractive is a struggle sometimes because Beauty puts a lot of expectations on a person to be Social, the Life of the Party, a Social Butterfly... and yet you do not feel comfortable.