Another Christmas, no friends, no family
Another Christmas goes by for me with no friends or family to celebrate with. I have no friends, and no family. Today I spent Christmas at work since I have nothing better to do.
I grew up without a father and with a mother who constantly abused me. My mother had a severe hatred toward my father due to the things he supposedly did to her. As I grew up and started looking more like my father, she took that anger out on me (every day). To tell you the truth, I didn't even realize what she did would be considered abuse until after she passed away. I figured what she did was normal since I saw other kids being spanked by their parents, I figured my mother was just being a bit harsher. I now realize what she did would definitely be considered child abuse (some acts would probably even be considered sodomy or sexual abuse). Her constant neglect and abuse of me while growing up has caused me to have social anxiety problems (so says my therapist).
For me, the highlight of my day was getting paid extra for working Christmas. I am so confused and I don't know what to do with my life. I don't want to spend the rest of my Christmases like this. I'm glad I found this social anxiety support website since I really need some support!