In life you can feel however you want.
But you should know, that there are two types of people in a wheelchair.
1. Dancing breakdance with their wheelchair.
2. Drinking in their wheelchair.
Some people who are normal drink and are depressed. and Wheelchair driver NR.1 would have a better life at the end of it.
We live our lives in our head and mortal body has nothing to do with it.
If i were you, I would be seeking joy from things that are joyful, not misery.
"Am I some sort of creepy sick individual?" if you feel that way, then you are. If you don't feel that way, then you aren't.
In life we judge ourselves nobody can judge us until we kill somebody.