Took A Shower Today

[helpless]

Thanks for the posts, everybody.

The business I had to conduct yesterday turned out good, and one of the gentlemen I saw had a full beard, altho I don't think it looks good on me, reason I shaved it off.

[millenniumman75]

You looked younger, then!

[helpless]

Thanks for the post, millenniumman75.

Also, expecting the worse, got results of my cholesterol test showing great improvement on trigylcerides, some improvement on good cholesterol, slight raise in bad cholesterol, but on the whole an improvement.

I still feel extremely depressed.

Have started treating the Tinea Versicolor I've neglected for so long (that is on a seperate thread), but still feel extremely depressed, since my money is going to run out, and bankruptcy, & homelessness will eventually happen to me, if I don't get to earning more than I am making on this overworked, underpaid, awful job that I despise working at.

[kaye]

wow. I also have reduced my frequency of showering, skipping a day frequently. Used to shower every evening, it was a comfort to me.

Rememeber what we regularly do holds a certain amount of control over our behavior: what's habitual is easier to do. So not bathing regularly makes it easier to not bathe, likewise bathing regularly makes it easier to bathe regularly.

I have a couple tricks I use to get myself to do stuff I Do Not want to do: one is give myself a treat that I want directly after I'm done. Another is to just do the thing and focus just on doing it as fast as I can, so my attention gets focused on moving as efficiently as I can, takes some attention off feeling I don't want to do it.

Therapists say depression is repressed emotions. I am guessing that helpless has some repressed feelings that he is stifling within himself, something from his past, that if he started to get more conscious about, to feel and think about, might move some emotion and lighten up some of the depression. My idea. One thing I've done is talk to myself (in my head not out loud) adult to child, child is feelings and adult is thinking. How are you today? "I hate you and I want to die!" I'm sorry you hate me, do you have an idea why you hate me? "Because you never let me do anything fun!" So then you can start to move some of the feelings pushed down under the depression. OK so what fun thing would you like to do right now? And then you can promise yourself to do such and such at such and such time. This stuff can help. Try it and if you feel a shift emotionally, it helps.

And congratulations and thanks for sharing your personal story, something most people never would have the courage to do!

[helpless]

Kaye:

Many thanks for the nice reply.

You had a lot of good things to say. I had also thot of not doing something as being as much of a habit as doing things.

I think I am fully conscious of all my past hurts and traumas, altho I'll say there could still be some I don't consciously remember.

It's the bleak, helpless, hopeless future that is most depressing to me.

And, on the past hurts, I have few people I can discuss them with, &, as we all do, those few people are annoyed by my repeating the same stories over & over.

(Gonna stop, since every time a punch a key on board, takes 5 sec. or more for it to show on screen).

[Phoenix87]

Keep striving to do better, you're making good improvements, it'd be a shame to give it all up. Take it step by step, and you'll see yourself in better light soon.

Hang in there, good on ya for wanting better. Peace.

[helpless]

Thanks for the encouraging words, Phoenix87

[when will we be new skin]

A tad off current topics, but I've been having a bad dandruff problem lately. I love Herbal Essences, especially Drama Clean. But when I use it, my head itches like crazy and I have some flakes. I bought Head & Shoulders, and the FIRST time I used it, I could tell a difference. My scalp hardly ever itches. Works well for me.

[helpless]

Originally Posted by when will we be new skin

A tad off current topics, but I've been having a bad dandruff problem lately. I love Herbal Essences, especially Drama Clean. But when I use it, my head itches like crazy and I have some flakes. I bought Head & Shoulders, and the FIRST time I used it, I could tell a difference. My scalp hardly ever itches. Works well for me.

I think the post is on topic, since I've got a bad dandruff problem, too.

I did shower again today, Wednesday, Nov. 4, probably the first time in 6 days.

[millenniumman75]

It'll get easier - you are getting more frequent already .

[helpless]

Thanks for the encouraging word, millenniumman75.

I think the Tinea Versicolor (awful skin rash) is fading some. I put on 2 applications of ointment last week, and probably should apply some more this week.

I have tried different frequencies of treating the disease, sometimes applying ointment twice a day, sometimes once a day, & sometimes every other day.

It does respond well to the ointment, but, a dermatologist calling such an itchy, ugly rash a "friendly" fungus, might be overdoing it somewhat.

[helpless]

Still no shower since the last one reported.

Going into 2 weeks now?

I've lost track of the time since last one.

[Makaveli]

just take one bro, think of how refreshed you feel after one, I know it can be hard to get up and do it but just force yourself, you don't want to get health complications from a lack of showering

u can do it!

[Jaiyyson]

congratulations

severely depressed people find this hard as a result of poor self esteem, but something they don't realise is that they can look and feel good if they really want to.

i often do not feel as though i want to look good on the outside if i feel bad on the inside.

[helpless]

Thanks for the post, Jaiyyson.

Today, I shaved off about 3-4 weeks of beard growth, and am glad I did.

I'm planning to take a shower and shampoo both tomorrow and Tuesday morning.

Originally Posted by Jaiyyson

congratulations

severely depressed people find this hard as a result of poor self esteem, but something they don't realise is that they can look and feel good if they really want to.

i often do not feel as though i want to look good on the outside if i feel bad on the inside.

[helpless]

Also, Makaveli, thanks for your encouraging reply.

Originally Posted by Makaveli

just take one bro, think of how refreshed you feel after one, I know it can be hard to get up and do it but just force yourself, you don't want to get health complications from a lack of showering

u can do it!

[millenniumman75]

It's encouraging to see that you are still trying. I would add a shave on the second shower. That should help synchronize times. It's easier to shave after a shower.

[helpless]

Originally Posted by millenniumman75

It's encouraging to see that you are still trying. I would add a shave on the second shower. That should help synchronize times. It's easier to shave after a shower.

Thanks for the reply, millenniumman75.

I did shower & shampoo today. Not sure how long since last time, but I'm glad I did.

Of course I need to do some laundry, because if your body is clean, & you put back on soiled, smelly clothing, you might still be a problem to other people.

Any of you other SAS board members dread bathing & doing laundry like I do?

I'd suspect there are others, from the response I've gotten to this thread.

But, I'd also suspect that some of us on the board might be compulsive about keeping extra clean, bathing too much, and doing laundry too often.

If there are any members like that, I'd also like to hear from you.

[Lisa]

Hi helpless,

stick with it and keep posting. We'll support you where we can.

Lisa

[ItemEleven]

^^ Ditto


Sometimes I feel as though my mind and body are two seperate things. It's my body that doesn't want to do anything. My mind does.

When I have to get things done I remind myself that I am my mind and that I'm not going to let my body stop me from doing things.

Hope that makes sense.