Originally Posted by Kon
It was an easy diagnosis for me. I feel intense rage. I have to leave the room when I hear such sounds or stay with immense anxiety/rage. I feel like annihilating anybody who makes those sounds including those closest to me. I have trouble eating with them, unless there's some white /distracting noise in the background. I've been like this since I was a teenager. The worst is to be inside a closed place like a car. My psychiatrist didn't even know about the condition because it isn't in the DSM, as of the latest edition, as far as I know.
Holy ****...I can't believe I'm not alone. I seriously feel like murdering anyone who coughs or clears throat loudly and continuously. Everytime someone makes either noise, I get an enormous urge to tell them to shut the **** up or give them the finger.
This started happening just months after I was diagnosed with social anxiety. My main SA symptom has been head tremor/twitch. One time at a conference my head was shaking, and the lady right behind me started coughing soon after. She would not stop until I was completely out of her sight. Since then I found more and more people clearing throat and coughing when my head shook or twitched. I've come to believe that my head tremor, when seen, makes others uncomfortable, and they in turn clear throat and cough as a sign of anxiety.
As my anxiety worsened, so did the intensity and frequency of head tremor and the sensitivity to those sounds. Eventually the frustration caused by sound sensitivity completely overshadowed that from social anxiety itself. I've become so sensitive to coughing sound that it doesn't just annoy me but startles the crap out of me. It literally feels like someone shocked me with a defibrillator. And I have to go through it everytime I hear them.
I know my 'theory' is far fetched and often not true as people cough for many reasons, but I don't think I'm being completely paranoid either. At this point it doesn't matter what I think anyway. This shocking sensation and subsequent rage come before I can do anything about it.
I'm stuck in my room all day because of this. I go outside only when I have class or absolutely have to. I'm wrecked so much physically and mentally. I don't think it can get much worse than this. But I feel a bit better now that I know this is a known medical phenomenon. Thanks a lot for posting this.
Currently on: Depakine, Sediel, Klonopin, Prozac, Risperdal, Vitamin D, Calcium
Tried(Med.): Xanax, Valium, Ativan, Zoloft, Inderal, Tenormin, Paxil, Celexa, Lexapro, Adderall, Effexor, Emsam, Nardil, Seroquel, Zyprexa, Remeron, Lamictal, Abilify, Pristiq
Tried(Sup.): Vitamin B12, Magnesium, Kava Kava, Rhodiola Rosea, Omega-3