If you would all like to know more about me...
THat youtube link pretty much describes my early childhood. I suggest you all watch it. It describes how I felt with SM, and it also is related to SAD.
ANyways...I stopped talking to strangers after that freak out. I only talked to my family and my best friends. In school, I didn't say anything. However, I did make a lot of friends that I didn;t even talk to! It was easy for me to play with other kids at recess, whether it was basketball, kickball, handball, etc. A couple kids came to my house to play. Yet I didn;t even talk to them lol. It was weird. But that was how I was.
In 1st grade, my mom would pick me up after school and stay with me and the teacher. My mom would help me try to read out loud in front of the teacher. I could read and speak normally, and my teacher knew, but my mom wanted to teacher to hear me. I just couldn't do it though. It was so hard to speak up. Eventually, at the end of the year, after school, I read out loud finally.
After that, I gradually became more comfortable speaking. I remember another incident where I answered the phone on accident and our neighbor heard me speak for the first time. She was so happy lol. THat helped me speak more too. In 2nd grade, I began whispering to my classmates. By the middle of the year, I began talking to them normally. My teacher even told me to shush once (haha i know, what an accomplishment). Between grades 2 and 5, I spoke well in front of others. I even acted hyper at times in front of strangers. This period was the happiest of my life. I remember not being shy and just having fun with my family, friends, classmates, etc.
THen in middle school, I joined a new school and became shy again. No selective mutism, just social anxiety. Ever since then, I have had SAD. In a way, it feel similar to SM, even though I speak to strangers now. SOmetimes, I just shut down though, and I don;t know what to say to people other than "I don't know." or a shoulder shrug. Also, the situation has to be right for me to feel comfortable to speak freely. It's hard to explain, but that's how i feel at times. I'm sure other socially anxious people can relate.