Hello all. I am new to the website and I just wanted to share some of the quick notes I've jotted down about what my daily life and experience has been like. Please excuse the format and any grammatical errors-- it was typed on my iPhone periodically and sometimes in a rush.
Also just for some background, I am a 21-year-old female college student who lives in Los Angeles. I am currently in therapy and will be starting a new medication soon.
-if I am somewhere where I am sweating a lot, I have to constantly check to see if I smell or reapply
— ex. 1: coachella, 100 degree whether reapplied deodorant 4 times after wiping underarms with baby wipes
— ex. 2: party/work, will go to bathroom 3-6 times to check underwear (smells underarms, pants, underwear, put clean finger on clitoris to check)
-afraid to have sex because I think I'm going so smell/especially oral sex
-can't use a dirty bathroom without closing eyes like if bathroom is dirty then I can't see it or else I can't pee or poop
-if I clean something it'll take hours, I've canceled plans because of it
-I won't have a good time when I go out if I can't constantly check on myself, I get instant anxiety relief when I cancel plans
-used to brush teeth/floss constantly but stopped because dentist told me I would strip them of fluorine (I think) now I do this weird throat thing because I think the smell is coming from there
-from this ^ I have tried to find out if I have a sinus infection and regularly do sinus drains and used a tool purchased from CVS to clear sinuses
-I spend hundreds of dollars on deodorants/perfumes/tooth products/going to the dentist/etc
-if someone rubs or touches their nose while I'm talking I think my breath smells. same thing if I'm walking by and they do that
-it takes me 2 and a half hours to get ready for work or to go out. I have to clean my vagina/butthole two times each and scrub my underarms twice as well.
-I have asked almost all of my family and close friends if I smell at some point
-manager was talking to me and another co-worker, while I was talking he turned away and never turned back around
-if anyone says anything indirectly about smell or odor I automatically assume they're talking about me
That's about all I have so far but there are many other things