obsessing over the fear that something is wrong with me
I'm always afraid that I might find out that there is something wrong with me other than that I have sad. I am always looking for symptoms, wondering if I have an autism spectrum disorder one minute, ocd the next. All of those things just seem so vague sometimes and I feel like if I do have any of this stuff then I don't deserve to keep trying to be normal. I feel that there is no point in trying to be normal like I do, and that I should just accept the fact that I am a freak of nature....this is very disturbing, confusing. and frustrating...especially since psychological problems in general are so complex even for many psychologists and other 'professionals'. I think that might be why I am in so much fear. I hate all of this obsessing! Why can't I just live like a normal person...a normal ignorant, non thinking person....haha
believe nothing, no matter where you read it or who has said it, not even if i have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.