yeah i really really like this guy ALOT. but hes in a relationship to with this amazingly beautiful woman. and there is no way i would compare to her. people would prob make fun of this guy if he left her for me lol. i dont know if he knows i like him lol. prob does cuz i can never talk around him or with him. he must think im a fool for real.
. but i still want him :S. even though we cant make conversation and have awkward moments :s.
this is so horrible. and im in a long time relationship too. and this guy loves me sooo much too. and hes already talking about a life and future with me and ending life in the same cemetary with me too lol. he would do anything for me!! literally! he would give me anything!! and he believes in me that i can do anything even though i have SA (although i dont think he really realizes what SA is and how affected i am...he just thinks i will grow out of it and that its no big deal) but all i feel for this guy is that he is my best friend right now. i didnt want to get so deep in this relationship but me with this SA i had noone else to talk to. he was always there for me to give me advive and to hang out. and now he wants to be with me forever! i barely had a chance to experience life! im so confused i dont know what to do! im pretty much going to be with this guy forever now too :S. i wish i could just do my things for a little while and then come back to him when i felt satisfied but it doesnt work like that. we cant call a time off theres no way. his family, my family and him would be like "what the
fu@k...why?" everyone is pretty much expecting us to get married...literally...expecting us. i said "not yet" but regardless, they are expecting it between us at some point in life. im doomed :S.
and i cant even believe im on here obsessing and thinking about this guy which is prompting me to write all thic
cr@p...meanwhile i should really be focusing on MY life and my school and my work but i cant. and this guy that i like is prob enjoying himself right now NOT even thinking one bit of me
. so i cant believe i waste my time thinking about him!!! but i cant stop it :S.