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Old 07-14-2013, 10:19 PM   #61 (permalink)
 
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Oh my goodness, there's a name for this! This literally ruined my life as a teenager, I got so into it. I'm putting my story here so hopefully people will learn from my mistake and not also get too into it.

I hated my life as a teenager. I had SA back then and got made fun of and bullied constantly, so I started daydreaming a good life to combat my anxiety and depression. When I came home from school I would go right to my bed and lay down on my back and go into my little headworld. I'd usually act out certain things using my hands or my facial expressions without realizing it (making kissy faces and huggy hands during a romantic story, yep)

I had characters with deep intricate personalities and I'd often put them into situations with characters from my favourite shows (at the time I was just getting into anime, so it was mostly Sailor Moon and such) They'd live out whole lives, and I'd put in drama around every corner, and I would just lay there all evening and night. Sometimes I'd play music on my headphones and daydream of karaoke bars or concerts. Once the next day came, I'd put my story on pause, go to my classes thinking about nothing but what things I'd do with my characters next. I'd forgo things like dinner and homework, only to have a feast with the "family" in my head. When one story ended (usually after a month) I'd start up a new one from the beginning.

I withdrew more and more and soon I was drawing out my characters and floorplans and entire maps of planets and wound up with a set unchanging universe with a story that didn't end. One day I was sitting in class and I could hear their voices, clear as day, and soon I began to see my "friends" walking next to me and doing whatever in the physical world even when I wasn't daydreaming. I couldn't turn them off, but they would talk to me and I felt it was "better for me" since I was actually in the real world rather than daydreaming.

Soon some of my more villainous evil characters popped up and I started freaking out and unable to tell their voices apart from those around me, so I knew I had to put a stop to it before I went into full-on schizophrenia.

Long story short, I went to see a psychologist and he worked with me to help me stop daydreaming so much, and once I stopped daydreaming the visual and vocal hallucinations began to fade. Nowadays I still daydream, but I'm very careful and keep a strict time table. One hour of daydreaming either in the morning by waking up early, or at night by getting into bed early. It's my little meditation time. Most of my daydreams are short stories that last only one or two days now, I'm afraid to go for longer, and they usually involve ideas I come up with for my fanfiction for Doctor Who, Supernatural, or Sherlock Other times, if I've got my headphones on, it's just me flying to music or riding dinosaurs across the tundra to Bach or whatever.
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^I don't understand why you disagree with those who say they have had this since they were a kid. Even as a child, you can spend so much time daydreaming in your own made up world, that it interferes with your life (i.e. school and the social/emotional bonds you should be forming.) In large enough doses, I think it begins to cause more harm than good, even as a child.
Well I guess I should clarify, I don't completely disagree. I just meant that when your a kid there is a more fuzzy line when it comes to daydreaming being a problem than it is when your an adult. As an adult it's almost always a bad thing to daydream but when your a kid it's more acceptable because most people expect you to dream and pretend. However for adults daydreaming is not acceptable in most cases on a daily basis due to all their responsibilities. I can see how when taken to certain extremes it can be bad for kids too though

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Yes, I've had it as a kid. Does every kid sit in bed sitting on there hands having repetitive motions while imagining things? Isn't this a part of the symptoms of MD for some people?
No, you've got me there :/ That isn't normal but I'm not sure it's just daydreaming too much either... The definition of this MD is like aspergers with the added symptom of daydreaming too much, so it's sort of questionable to me if it's not just really imaginative people with aspergers instead of a whole new disorder... but IDK? Could be.
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Old 07-15-2013, 07:07 PM   #63 (permalink)
 
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Currently exploring this topic with my therapist.

I tend to fantasize about being someone with great power who can have someone kidnapped/killed/etc or someone skilled enough to do it myself.

Along with suicide, I tend to jump to homicide as a solution to problems, especially with former relationship partners.

Made me feel good to see other people that experience similar things.
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Currently exploring this topic with my therapist.

I tend to fantasize about being someone with great power who can have someone kidnapped/killed/etc or someone skilled enough to do it myself.
I do that too, I think it has something to do with feeling insecure and weak... or at least in my case it is. Makes you long to be in complete control and powerful enough to manipulate people to your will :/
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So, excessive daydreaming is now a condition? Ugh.
And here I thought my like for daydreaming was a good way for me to cope.
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Wow. I've been doing this for as long as I can remember. Though it's mild compared to all the stuff I've read from people with the disorder.
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Wow. Okay now I know I'm not the only freak out there. I thought I was completely alone about this. But the more I keep looking into things, the more I realize there are other people like me out there. I found out a few months ago that what I though was just me being weird is actually two disorders called dermatophagia and dermatillimania. I also found out I have social anxieties and borderline disorders. I turn 16 in September. I think Im going to go to my mom about all this and ask her to take me to a doctor to see if all these new disorders are related or not

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So can any of you "see" your fantasies. For example when I'm driving home from work I can look at the skyline and see things play out. Obviously it's not there but I can still say robots destroying the city it gets intense
I don't visually see it with my eyes but at the same time I do see an image/movie playing out. I've never really thought this much about how I visualize things before but it's kinda weird LOL It's like my mind takes my memories and imagination; and generates a visual image of what I want to see without me actually seeing it visually... if that makes any since
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I don't visually see it with my eyes but at the same time I do see an image/movie playing out. I've never really thought this much about how I visualize things before but it's kinda weird LOL It's like my mind takes my memories and imagination; and generates a visual image of what I want to see without me actually seeing it visually... if that makes any since
Same thing here. It's very abstract. Almost all my thinking is.
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Dear God, this explains a lot...

I created a whole world. A couple, actually. I'm fixated on one right now, one that repeats itself often. I think it's because I grew attached to those characters, those complex personalities I created. I did it all the time when I was younger, and I always believed it would fade away when I was older.

It never did, so now I just accept it and don't tell anyone. I hope to make many of the older stories books one day.

Actually, I'm now inspired to create a thread for people to share their MD experiences. I want to hear what people think about.
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Dear God, this explains a lot...

I created a whole world. A couple, actually. I'm fixated on one right now, one that repeats itself often. I think it's because I grew attached to those characters, those complex personalities I created. I did it all the time when I was younger, and I always believed it would fade away when I was older.

It never did, so now I just accept it and don't tell anyone. I hope to make many of the older stories books one day.

Actually, I'm now inspired to create a thread for people to share their MD experiences. I want to hear what people think about.
Do it. I'd like to hear the gist of your two worlds.
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I don't visually see it with my eyes but at the same time I do see an image/movie playing out. I've never really thought this much about how I visualize things before but it's kinda weird LOL It's like my mind takes my memories and imagination; and generates a visual image of what I want to see without me actually seeing it visually... if that makes any since
Makes perfect sense
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You could use this on some kind of art you might create In my case writing helped me focus on my imagination when it is pleasant, and not worry about making plots when i have nothing to gain from that.
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Everything in that page describes me. But, I love daydreaming though, it's really fun. I was actually doing just that before i came across this thread and thought 'oh wow.' i had actually researched this awhile back just to make sure i wasn't the only one who did this because sometimes i think i do it way to much. I honestly started to describe my life as half in this reality and the other half in my head. I don't know if i have a trigger or not but, i have been doing this i swear since i can remember, probably since i was born.
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If you guys think this is a lot of people to have Maladaptive daydreaming, you should go to the Wild Minds Network, they have about 3000 members who have MD. Its like a giant forum just to talk about the condition.

In my case, ive had it for as long as I can remember. My trigger is music. I basically pace around and imagine a celebrity or person I think is cool (basically someone I want to impress) in the room and they watch me as I be awesome; much awesomer than I am in real life. I put myself in situations where I can show off how perfect and interesting and beautiful I am. I can sing, play instruments, im funny, crazy, wild, hot (all the things I wish I was in real life basically)...and the celebs or whoever it is at the time are usually sitting in a corner just watching, all impressed lol. I don't actually interact with them, although sometimes I do, but they are mostly just listening and watching me while im talking or doing something with someone else (this person whom im doing things with is not usually specified). Or a big one for me is imagining im on a tv show, or im about to be interviewed and they do an extensive introduction of me before I come out on stage, while the other guest stars are amazed that they have never heard of me before. lol (i cant believe im admitting all of this). Still other times I imagine im in a montage of stuff that my friends have filmed me doing, and sometimes I'm in slow mo and stuff like that. lol When i watch youtube and someone makes a funny joke, ill pause it, pretend im my character and repeat the exact same joke and get a laugh from my celeb fixation, or if I disagree with something the youtuber said I imagine they are with me and argue with them about it lmao. Other times it could be them watching me be a really good guitar player, or singer, or bikini model, or dancer, or comedian, or being really good at a certain sport. Or sometimes ill know a language 'secretly' and when I bust it out everyone is impressed. Or ill picture im back in time with elvis Presley or marlin monroe and act out how everything has changed in the future. Also, if im mad at someone in real life my daydreams will involve me saying the comeback I wish I did or yelling at them. Or if im pissed in general ill practice speeches and rants and say them over and over till iv perfected them and there is enough emotional impact in them for me to be 'relieved'. Then of course there are the sexual day dreams...which are probably even more common for people to have.

Sometimes if I go a couple days without daydreaming, it makes it all the more fulfilling when I finally get to do it. It really is like a high and I even experience withdrawal if I don't do it. A lot of times ill turn off all the lights (I even considered buying one of those disco ball things that light up and spin, just to enhance my experience) I guess because my mind is more stimulated when there is less external stimuli. Sometimes they are planned and some of them are just happening as I move about my daily life. Like if i'm at walmart ill pretend im super cool wearing really out there clothes and being loud and funny and everyone is noticing me; when in real life im alone, wearing a hoodie and listening to headphones hoping to avoid crowds of people. lol And at an even deeper level, my actual thoughts start off normal, and then I feel this strong urge to 'act them out'. In other words I will move my mouth and hands (if im alone obviously) as if im actually talking to someone (not anyone specifically, its more like the feeling of a presence of someone there).

But all the entertaining stuff aside, I don't think people really realize just how maladaptive this daydreaming can be. It almost always occurs in conjunction with other mental disorders. It is a distraction. Is it fulfilling a need that ought to filled with real life people and real experiences. And what are you supposed to do if you have a spouse or roommate? Just because it doesn't hurt anyone doesn't mean that it isn't an addiction. It is another way of escaping reality just like drugs/porn/tv etc. You could end up ignoring your real life. If you think about, the reason we daydream is because we feel the extreme need to be noticed, loved, accepted and approved of.
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If you guys think this is a lot of people to have Maladaptive daydreaming, you should go to the Wild Minds Network, they have about 3000 members who have MD. Its like a giant forum just to talk about the condition.
Thank you for the forum info, looks interesting.
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Dear God, this explains a lot...

I created a whole world. A couple, actually. I'm fixated on one right now, one that repeats itself often. I think it's because I grew attached to those characters, those complex personalities I created. I did it all the time when I was younger, and I always believed it would fade away when I was older.

It never did, so now I just accept it and don't tell anyone. I hope to make many of the older stories books one day.

Actually, I'm now inspired to create a thread for people to share their MD experiences. I want to hear what people think about.
Totally, do that! I'll share some of my stories and worlds XD Would be fun and make me feel better to actually have something to do with all the crap I come up with through the day!
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This sounds an awful lot like Schizoid Personality Disorder, which is closely related to Avoidant Personality Disorder, which is VERY closely related to Social Anxiety Disorder.
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I'm a teenager, and you just described my life.. No more words needed!!
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Interesting.

Every time I listen to music, I close my eyes and either pretend I'm a superstar performing or I make up a video for it in my head lol. Other times when I'm not listening to music , but still daydreaming, I would just make up or imagine a storyline in my head and it sometimes either makes me laugh, cry or I would quietly vocalise what I'm thinking in my head.

For me to cry about whatever storyline I'm daydreaming of though, it has to be triggered by something. Like if I get into a fight with someone and I sax hurt, I would later makeup some dramatic story in my head that never happened, where I was the victim, and then I would just cry.


Is that considered MD or am I just a random daydreamer? Or am I just a weirdo lol
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