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Old 10-01-2009, 07:59 AM   #1 (permalink)
 
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Default I have an appointment at an eating disorders clinic tomorrow

I don't even know how to get to it so I'm stressed about that. I'm gonna ask my sister to come if she's not working. I'm stressing out so much. On a plus I called them up this morning to confirm it and that went fine I hate making appointments on the phone. While I was on the roll I called my doctor to make an appointment for a review but I was really nervous and said the day wrong so she laughed at me lol. ah well. I only got the letter from the clinic this morning, I guess that saves a lot of anticipation. I'm just freaking out though. I feel too anxious to talk about it I hate talking about it. And a friends just text me asking what I'm doing tomorrow and I said I've got an appointment and she asked where and I don't know if I should tell her. I also feel really guilty getting help because sometimes I'm ok I feel like I shouldn't let myself be ok. If I'm ok why get help. Just really stressed, dunno what to do!!
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Old 10-01-2009, 08:30 AM   #2 (permalink)
 
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Aw, you'll be alright. They're professionals. They probably expect you to be anxious since it's your first time there. They'll be understanding of that. I wish you the best of luck though!!
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thats great! it seems like you could really benefit from help a lot. i hope it goes well. the first appointments are always very nerve-wrecking and i'm sure the doctors understand that. you could even mention that you are a bit nervous.

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Thanks. I'm just SO nervous. My anxiety's got so bad lately after I talked to them my hands were shaking and my heart was racing and I'm getting it again now. I'm mostly nervous about getting there and where I go when I get in. The building's just a house. I feel so guilty I feel like cancelling but I won't.
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Aw that's how I felt when I went to this stomach doctor senior year. I had to go by myself, riding on a bus route I'd never been on before, going to an area I'd never been in before, seeing a doctor I'd never met before. But it all passed. It'll pass for you, too. And you'll be really proud of yourself afterwards!
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I just feel really guilty for getting help, I don't really need it. Sometimes I do. Some family and a couple friends are worried. Sometimes I'm ok. sometimes I'm not. Really it's not that bad. So I feel bad... I need to sleep, I don't normally sleep at night but gotta get up kinda early and I'm stressed as hell. I don't think I'll be proud lol... I think I'll feel... guilty. But thanks again for the support.
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It'll help you a lot! You need to eat, you don't want your stomach to eat you from the inside now

Besides, if you get anything out of it, it'll learn how to cope and you'd eat to be healthier. I'm proud of you for going through with it
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It was really uncomfortable it felt like an interview, she kept asking what my goals are for going on group therapy and I was thinking, I don't know I don't particularly want to go. So I kept not knowing what to say and repeating the same thing. Then she asked what my anxieties are about and I just dunno how to put it into words. I didn't feel that nervous this morning just before I went in I'm glad I brought my sister on the way there because when I start to stress she'll just say straight "don't ****in start that.". But I'm going back on monday and that's for group so I'm dreading that. Because I don't have it that bad I feel guilty and it just feels SO self indulgent. And I feel like I should sort of keep it up because otherwise it's like I'm lying if I'm doing ok I feel like a fraud and I don't know if I made it sound worse than it is to them.
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