Originally Posted by Addi
It´s a symptom of BDD to have to scrutinize one self everytime one goes out. Stand infront of the mirror going over everything, details. I spend time infront of the mirror going over myself even if I´m just going out to the hall, out with the trash or shopping for dinner. If something isn´t good enough I don´t go outside, if my hair stands out somewhere I don´t go out hehe. This is such a weird condition.
Ugh, I do this all the time too, it's so exhausting. I just want to be able to walk out the house w/o consulting a mirror first... sometimes I don't even want to answer the door. I've wondered if I have BDD because I really think my nose may be getting bigger, or my head smaller... either way, all I see when I look in the mirror is a giant nose... like those old Afrin commercials.. that's me!
Originally Posted by bchavez2
I check myself in the mirror relentlessly. I do it before leaving for work, several times, I do it at work all day long and I do it on my way home in the car. BDD is such a crazy condition because its incredibly difficult to control. I get really sad sometimes, deeply depressed. Sometimes, I wish I were somebody else completely. Maybe that way I'd have a chance at a better more normal life.
I totally feel you on this one, it's the cause of my depression, & I always wonder how much easier my life would be, how much happier I would be, if I had just gotten lucky like so many other people, and be attractive.
Originally Posted by paranoid
..my perception of how I look changes drastically, some days I think I'm ok, other days I feel so ugly I can't leave the house. Especially different mirrors, different lighting really confuses me how I really look. I check mirrors a lot too.
Me too, it seems silly, but I know I look best when I turn off the lights in my bathroom, and look in the mirror with just sunlight... so that's how I look at myself before I leave everyday, b/c I know I'll feel better that way. I know that's not how I'll look everywhere though, so I don't know what the point is. I try to avoid the mirror in the bathroom at work b/c I look horrible in it & it depresses me. I wish we lived in a world with no overhead lighting.
Originally Posted by misskiki25
I used to try on everything in my wardrobe for hours and then not even go to school.
I still do this, I've been late for work more times than I can count b/c of this obsession. It takes me FOREVER to get ready, & 9 times out of 10 I still feel ridiculously uncomfortable where ever I go. And my roommate just jumps out of bed and runs out the house looking incredible with no effort, it's so depressing.
I always worry about things like what if I end up in the hospital & have to be seen in one of those gowns, or if I get hurt & my shirt has to be removed to treat an injury... things I can't control.
I don't even like people looking at me from the side b/c I hate my profile.. but how can I avoid that?
The list could go on...