Originally Posted by Addi
Itīs a symptom of BDD to have to scrutinize one self everytime one goes out. Stand infront of the mirror going over everything, details. I spend time infront of the mirror going over myself even if Iīm just going out to the hall, out with the trash or shopping for dinner. If something isnīt good enough I donīt go outside, if my hair stands out somewhere I donīt go out hehe. This is such a weird condition.
Ugh, I do this all the time too, it's so exhausting. I just want to be able to walk out the house w/o consulting a mirror first... sometimes I don't even want to answer the door. I've wondered if I have BDD because I really think my nose may be getting bigger, or my head smaller... either way, all I see when I look in the mirror is a giant nose... like those old Afrin commercials.. that's me!
Originally Posted by bchavez2
I check myself in the mirror relentlessly. I do it before leaving for work, several times, I do it at work all day long and I do it on my way home in the car. BDD is such a crazy condition because its incredibly difficult to control. I get really sad sometimes, deeply depressed. Sometimes, I wish I were somebody else completely. Maybe that way I'd have a chance at a better more normal life.
I totally feel you on this one, it's the cause of my depression, & I always wonder how much easier my life would be, how much happier I would be, if I had just gotten lucky like so many other people, and be attractive.
Originally Posted by paranoid
..my perception of how I look changes drastically, some days I think I'm ok, other days I feel so ugly I can't leave the house. Especially different mirrors, different lighting really confuses me how I really look. I check mirrors a lot too.
Me too, it seems silly, but I know I look best when I turn off the lights in my bathroom, and look in the mirror with just sunlight... so that's how I look at myself before I leave everyday, b/c I know I'll feel better that way. I know that's not how I'll look everywhere though, so I don't know what the point is. I try to avoid the mirror in the bathroom at work b/c I look horrible in it & it depresses me. I wish we lived in a world with no overhead lighting.
Originally Posted by misskiki25
I used to try on everything in my wardrobe for hours and then not even go to school.
I still do this, I've been late for work more times than I can count b/c of this obsession. It takes me FOREVER to get ready, & 9 times out of 10 I still feel ridiculously uncomfortable where ever I go. And my roommate just jumps out of bed and runs out the house looking incredible with no effort, it's so depressing.
I always worry about things like what if I end up in the hospital & have to be seen in one of those gowns, or if I get hurt & my shirt has to be removed to treat an injury... things I can't control.
I don't even like people looking at me from the side b/c I hate my profile.. but how can I avoid that?
The list could go on...