Depression really gets me down

[John_in_SF]

Wow, I had a really terrible day yesterday. Went back to lying on the sofa in the dark thinking terrible thoughts. I hadn't done that for several months.

The reason, I believe, is that I tried to ratchet down my meds. I should know better by now. It feels good at first, but within a week or two I'm sinking into the pit again.

So today I started back up to my previous levels. I feel much better already. But it is still frustrating to think that I am so dependent on these pills.

Can't decide if this rant goes here or in Frustration!