Over the weekend I was looking to see if there was anything over the counter that could help with anxiety. After reading about vitamins and stuff I don't believe in, I stumbled upon something that said Benadryl could work. I thought, "Yeah, that sounds better than stupid vitamins."
So I went to Wal Mart and bought me a box of the generic brand. For $1.99 I could get 25 pills, what did I have to lose?
I've taken four each day this week and they have been just about as good as Xanax was. It makes me sleepy, but keeps the shaking way down. I have been quite calm all week so far.
Even if it stops working tomorrow, I'm thankful for the three days of calmness it has given me. Three days in which I still knew I sucked at life and at my job, but didn't care. Three days with no twitching, no hands shaking, no coughing and gasping for air when someone asks me something. Just a general drunkenness that I have enjoyed.
Well, there you have it. I probably just jinxed myself or someone will respond by telling me that taking too many of these could cause some kind of terminal illness. You see, they won't have read enough of my posts to know that I would consider that a blessing. Should be fun.
Here's to Benadryl (popping open a can of Big K Oh! Cola)