Something that works better or almost as good as medication for me.

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HONESTY. I never thought I was a dishonest person because I would tell people too much and get myself in trouble sometime even.lol BUT- I am not talking about that kind of honesty..it hard to explain but the type of honesty like when you were a two year old and you wanted something and you screamed and yelled until you got..well not that drastic. BUT- Being able to tell people WHATS YOU ARE REALLY THINKING ABOUT THEM. I used to be the type who would THINK for other people man, I would say thing to PLEASE THEM not me.

Now, like if someone is pissing me off- I just tell them straight up even if it's a stranger (you got to kid a little though, don't want to get in a fight)

Just saying what on you mind at that moment, even if you think it might hurt someone feeling, but in your mind the right thing to do, I try to do.

OR I see a girl and i'm thinking in my mind she pretty, I will complement her.

Just getting out of your head by saying what on your mind has helped out my anxiety a WHOLE LOT.

I will never say I beat Social Anxiety (Because I said it in the past and it caught up on me) I think it's either genetic or really deeply intertwined in a person who has it. I don't know about you but I been going to therapy since I was 13 and no amount sitting on my couch talking about my problems ever helped. The only thing that has helped so far is being ruthless Honest, almost to the point of being ballsy, and getting out a whole lot, which is hard for me to do now because I dont have a car.

I can be in a restraunt now and people will tell my mom will tell me to be quite because I talk to loud, and it used to be ther other way around I would hate going out to eat with her because I was embarresed of her.lol She talks to the waitresses for what like seems hours because she used to be one and I hated it so much! Now I don't care it's a PUBLIC establishment, for pete sake.

I know that I need to try to not get too carried away and be the loud mouth that no one likes, but so far it's brought people into my life and before I had zilch, and I don't work or nothing, I have one class but no one talks in it, except for me and the kid next to me.. I used to care about that too, like what other thought about me in school. Screw it.


I am not dissing medication and therapy, but I have been to regular therapy, CBT, REBT, Psychodynamic, therapy with no name, and my shrink I see now is a Psychoanalyst and on sign it says dream interpatation. Not dissing old man freud but the guys version of therapy is making you say everything for a hour and him not talking back. I had to tell him I needed to cut the therapy session in half, because it's crazy it's like im talking to a brick wall.

And medication, Adderal helps my motivation not my SA, benzo dont do ****.. The best there is for that is Alcohol. No joke, i'm not talking about drinking by yourself, but if your in a public place, ah man it gets you right out of your head and your honest a whole lot. Alcohol is like truth serum! I have to cut down because health problems, and it sucks, but oh well.

I have bad days all the time, man this world get cold and VERY lonley sometimes. I still take remeron.

I have to remind myself not to be too cocky, because when I forget what works and think I have SA beat, I am back to squack one.

BIG MIDDLE FINGER TO SOCIAL ANXIETY.